...bury me in all my favourite colours.

Time doesn't heal things. it only blur things so that you don't remember as clearly as before.

2010-09-20T09:45:00.000-07:00

I know,

There's no use looking back or wondering
How it could be now or might have been
I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you

Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby.

all those disheartening thoughts are lost in fragments of memory.

who is she.

2010-09-06T08:45:00.000-07:00

been a month since I sent the email. shit me, my heart's still with you. I really donno what she's got that I don't have. but I don wanna know. irony. but don worry, I wont let it show and I wont let you know. there's only second best I could find now. speaking of a broken heart. I know it all too well.

how i really wish you could come back. forget everything that happened and be with you. I never thought I could put my pride down to this extent. never, did I thought you could move on so fast. where is the boy I love so much? the boy with the kind heart which I fell so crazy in love with, whom I know I just wanna grow old with, I could give up everything for? where are the days I so damn contented just sleeping next to you, hearing your heart beating and hold your arm, knowing that he really loves my heart, he really do. the one who will look into my eyes and tell me I'm beautiful. felt so right. everything just felt so goddamn right. but then things start to change. he changed. i asked him why he changed, and he replied ' because, people do change.' it hurts me so bad. tears swallowed down inside, held back my tears and I felt the lump in my throat so many times. I was all along loving the boy who he once was, but too bad he changed.

why did he become such a evil man?

so i promised myself im gonna hold my head high, not gonna let anybody see pain anymore. even if it means crying alone in the night, yeah my huge ego, i will survive through. but im falling into pieces everytime I think of the past. where is the strength I had. i just wanna know, how could he be so cold hearted and changed. for he had a girl who loves him so damn much. I really love him so much. if only you can dig out my heart and take a look

2010-08-29T19:58:00.000-07:00

here is the only place that i can voice out my real thoughts. because I know no one will ever read them.

I used to be a dreamer. I am a dreamer. I have my fears. unspoken fears. I am so afraid I will never find another boy who loves me like he did. I am so scared. I think about it everyday. I worry about it everytime. So long you come back, give me a hug like how you used to, everything will be okay. I can forget about the bad things you did to me. I regret giving you up. yes I regret it so much. but I guess you need the freedom. I dont know why your so hard to get over with. perhaps I still love you. just like how I did the very first day we been tgt.
I simply couldnt get myself to stop the clock on this blog.
I know I shouldnt love you still because you no longer do.
time, help me with this please.

2010-08-03T21:03:00.000-07:00

its sucha shame. I have lost the you that I knew so well, somewhere, somehow. or is that the one that you shown me? that pretended side of yours? i dont know. but its no point to know anymore.

but as far as I know the clock has never stop before

love.

2010-07-22T19:35:00.000-07:00

wanna post this here because I know nobody would check my old blog here hah.

it can be quite fun to see someone telling you lies in your face when you already knew the truth.
Indeed, it broke me up inside as you continue every sentence.
I dont know what cause this change of heart in you. But just that my love for you have never change abit. and it never will.

closing down

2010-05-28T09:18:00.000-07:00

WADDDUPPPPP peepsssss ((: ahhh anws just wanna inform your that this blog's closing down. for frens, sorry uh not much updating lately. for haters, yeah go ahead and be glad about it. but same old lines: FUCK YOU(s).(: will be sending u all link of new acc in future. till then....takecare ! :DDD

27/05/2010

2010-05-26T10:08:00.000-07:00

dont jump.

you used to have a girl who loves you so much, who's willing to wait for you.
Yet you chose to throw it all away.

25/05/2010

2010-05-25T09:00:00.000-07:00

uh. jealousy? envy? a little bit of both i guess. dream. i mean..... urgh fuck it. as the song goes, whatever will be, will be. yeah.

everyone makes mistakes right? haah. well.

whatever will be, will be.

had gone with the flow for too long and lost myself.

time to find it somewher else.

its now or never.

22/05 - 23/05

2010-05-23T04:05:00.000-07:00

nah uh. thissh ishh sho not guuudd.

waking up at 7pm on a sunday. how the hell am i going to sleep at night when there's work tmrrrrrrrrrrr. rwarrr.

anws had a fun night out with bert n ppl. went to had dinner at billy bombers after bert's gig, and toured arnd town. went for drinks at Spyder opposite Paradiz centre. brings back lots of memories man. tower of beer n a black label. close-to-killer combi for me after laying off alcohol for quite some time ah. after which went to cine for K-box till 6am, as well as for more and more drinksssss. shiokkkk to the max. back home at 7am plus, bathed and i jiktao concuss-ed. wan der fool weekend. ahhhh. im so god damn awake/stoned now aye. shit.

HAHAHA and all that's ringing in my mind now:

''Bo ta Bo LANJIAO! (except for me lahhh)'' and the ''Bro-code''. lololololololololol.

sometimes i guess i'll much prefer be a guy to than being a girl. It would be so much simpler.

If that boy dont love you by now, he'll never ever love you. harsh reality

2010-05-19T22:33:00.000-07:00

According to the Greek mythology, humans were originally created with four legs, four arms, and a head with two faces.

Fearing their power, Zeus split them apart, condemning them to spend their lives in the search of their other half.

20/05/10

2010-05-19T21:08:00.000-07:00

despite all, you're still the best thing that could ever happen to me.

19/05/10- you're a....sexy baby.

2010-05-19T07:20:00.000-07:00

OT-ed tonight. tired and headed home after work. only motivation? getting ma fishy coloured end of mth. well planning to go for it by myself but since he wanted to acc me let it be then.

thinking back on the month so much happened. owe a big one to marke. if not hav no idea that sickening son-of-a-bitch gonna g__gb__g me with hw many of those f-up bastards. and that bloody bitch. none of her motherfucking business still wan chup. really jiak ba bo sai pang sial.

anws am looking forward to those club sessions with ma bitches man(: hav been so long since my freedom. its time to rock baby.

I shivered at the thought of it.
I wont let another man into my heart again.
I wont.

...I hope.

18/05/10

2010-05-17T08:02:00.000-07:00

swt words n humor.

I felt appreciated.

I felt remembered.

I felt human once again.

hatred

2010-05-16T10:30:00.000-07:00

why cant you use the heart that I've used to accept all your mistakes and incompetency?

16/05

2010-05-16T01:15:00.001-07:00

memories are being erased, bit by bit.

15/05/10

2010-05-14T22:37:00.000-07:00

Everyone wants to know why I won't let you go. It's because if I walk away, I know you won't come after me.

14/05/10 Part two

2010-05-14T09:33:00.000-07:00

went bugis after work with joyce to meet up with ayuni to chill. walked arnd and talked for hours. bought myself a beautiful pair of rose studs. was otw home when stoped by a group of bengs. asked me for number. luckily they werent persistent. tio reject 3 times and give up.

Im contented enough right now, aint I?

14/05/10, our tenth.

2010-05-13T09:45:00.000-07:00

Happy 10th baby.

13/05/10

2010-05-13T08:14:00.001-07:00

took half day off work. tired.

was told that I will be taught editorial work to help clients in coming up with advertising lines. Sorta cheered me up abit as I can use little creativity and also get abit closer to my dream of entering mass comm.

hope it all works out fine.

13/05/2010

2010-05-12T09:16:00.000-07:00

fuck this life.

left chest hurts again. hav to stop my breathing to ease the sharp pain. wonder, can i just stop breathing. too tired to go on. nothing's holding me back anymore. my love for life is gone. every single fucking day is drenched in darkness. which motherfucker knows.

I've became so silent. and lifeless.

Come and take me away if you want. I dont want me anymore. same nostalgic-

free me.

but lord pls help me in any unforeseen outcome. let him find a girl who loves him as much as I do. whole-heartedly.
just dont take away my memories. they're mine

08/05/2010 - Can you meet me halfway

2010-05-08T00:59:00.000-07:00

Just woke up. Met up with jieying and jac, but jac couldnt make it to meet us. had 2 buckets of heinekens. High and dry.

she asked me to stay where I am. till he comes back.

faith is running out. thinking back on all the bad things he did.

Is it worth it?

fucked it up once, but i aint gonna fuck it up twice.

You once said you will never let harm come in my way. You broke your promise.

03/05/2010

2010-05-02T10:04:00.000-07:00

i asked,

Can i close my eyes and forget everything.

No one replied me.

I asked again.

I want everything to be that simple, thats all.

Nothing.

Its all empty.

I've become so hollow.

This is not the wencui i used to know.

Fallen and defeated.

Fine. God, u won.

01/05/10

2010-05-01T07:09:00.000-07:00

went to bert's gig ytd. laughs. movie at 2am. home at 4am plus. tired, but worth it(: im starting to love this feeling. embrace it baby.

25/04/2010

2010-04-24T21:07:00.001-07:00

Guess i've started to find my self-worth. Hence im so affected by it. and others.

Im so tired. I dont even bother explaining myself to others. Which motherfucker knew the heartache Im having.

24/04/2010

2010-04-24T05:05:00.000-07:00

where are you b.

the feeling of missing you is still as strong.

i miss you.wanted to go view your fb page, but i dont even dare to open that page. guess its THAT overwhelming to me. and no, i still haven went to your page since u sailed. guess as a coward i do not have the courage.

had a dream ytd lol.

dreamt i found out from marke that u meeting him to play LAN at Geylang (-.-) while u were taing a break from ur sailing. laughs. lol. still rmber i was damn pissed y u didnt reply my msges yet contacted Marke to go DOTA. lol.

well. a dream, is still a dream after all. yea

Nothing in words can describe how much im missing you right now, hubby. lougong fai dik fan lei ah.

i promise i wont pick on you and find chance to quarrel with you liao. come back okay?

i tried to do everything i can to take my mind off you,but you have no idea how hard it is. you ARE indeed on my mind 24/7. nabeh. yesterday even sneaked into my dream sia.

perhaps i'll be better after starting work on monday. perhaps.

23/04/2010

2010-04-23T05:46:00.000-07:00

You said there might be possibility of wireless there.

I held on to the hope.

I log in everytime,checking my mail inbox.

There's no news of you.

how are you doing b.

ngo hou xiong lei ah.

i want ur kisses on my cheeks, forehead, nose, and lips to feel safe.

I want you to come back , hug me to tell me everything's alright.

I miss you so badly.

22/04/2010

2010-04-22T08:50:00.000-07:00

yea guess i've began blogging once again. its the only way i can express myself, although its pathetic how im pouring my heart out to a electronic device. in fucking constrast to the image i potrait to people; being heck-care and stuff.

i really really am missing him.

tons and tons of questions in my head.
is he slping well? what does he eat there? is he eating well there? hw's his days over there? wat to do if it rains over there? is there somebody who help the dumbdumb iron his uniform there? does he thinks of me at least once a day? does he know im thinking of him.
god. im missing him so badly. swore i never knew i could ever love a man so much. so much that i will do anything to hug him now. I wanna feel his warmth. That familiar pair of hands, which im gonna hold till the day im being put into the ground. till the day my memories are being erase out of my mind. till the day where even alpha and omega doesnt even exist when everything doesnt matter anymore.

I love you.

21/04/2010

2010-04-21T01:32:00.000-07:00

Its officially one day since u went on your sailing.

All i want to do now. is to lean close to you and whisper :

Ngo hou xiong lei ah Lougong. Ngo zhen ga hou xiong lei ah. Lei fai di fan lei, hou ma.

you never know much i yearn for you to be sleeping next to me right now. I promise I'll watch you sleep. I promise.

130210

2010-02-12T20:12:00.000-08:00

once again you let me down.
you said to bring me along to your dinner.
yet you mention shits about it now.
dont you know how i wanted the acceptance?
but yet how you want me to say it? to ask you? ' are you bringing me along?'
its unfair.
times and tomes you make me so down.
i thought you'll know me inside out by now.
seems like you dont.
you made me wanna say goodbye so much.
my heart just gets colder by the minute.

sudden/out-of-boredom thought/reminisc(e)

2010-01-20T18:36:00.000-08:00

eh. no purpose for this post la. just feel like typing it i guess.

Well ever since 110709, my life has undoubtedly, made a dramatic change. Or rather someone changed it dramatically. For the better(:

And so here it begins, me learning and observing how to, what is, finding out why, etc. All these questions revolve around nothing but the thing called love. I wont say that its a word but a thing as it is more of a starting point in a mind-map that leads to alot of stuffs much rather than just a four-letter word. AND, i think ALL dictionaries should have the word removed. Simply cause it is not a thing that can be explained or defined universally and have it approved by Wikipedia/Google/Whatever Lanjiao websites or professors or whosoever. It applies to two individuals, (or three, four, five......... if your into THOSE kinda thing and you know what i mean :D) , to each their own.

WTF am i rambling on -..-
OH YEAH what really triggers off this post was my dream i had recently.
Well it was back into the days when im still at Club9. And the after math? After i woke up, can't help but think and compare the life then and the life im having now. Though both ARE fucked, but one's fuck and the other is fuckery fuck.
Okay. Shall begin with my NOW life. Waking up at 6am: pee, brush teeth, bath, dry hair, make up, dressed, take bus. Reached office, switch on computer, and there it goes, my day of facebooking/a-bit-of-working. Monday to Friday. Welcome to my life. OKAY LAH it isnt so bad LAH. You'll find out why if you continue your reading to the end of this nonsensical post. :))

WHEREAS, the LAST-TIME life: sleep at 6 or 7am, wake up ard 5pm, pee, brush teeth, eat first-meal-of-the-day, watch tv, nuah abit here and there, bath, changed, off to work at 8 or 9pm. Stepping inside, you'll be greeted by familiar faces, or welcomed by stares of unfamiliar people whom will be caught whispering to their friends or companies ' Li kua Li kua, An Ni Shueh Han Zho Pub Liao', in which you'll proceed to don-give-a-fuck /pretend nvr hear. For the familiar faces, you'll just feel their smiles whilst walking in, feeling their glares which scans you from top to toe, recieving compliments on how great you look with that mini skirt/new pair of heels. Fllowed by which, their offers or demands that u've to down 3 rockglasses of whatever cause you turn up for work so late. Fine i admit inside my mind was like '' Oi here is pub leh. Li ai wo ann ni zhan lai zhor simi ?!'' After a night of drink, 5-10, and stuff, our transport picks us up at like 2am and back home, sleeping safe and sound, partially cause of all the shit they made you down.

OKAYOKAY i know. I can no longer go back. though there is the tiny/hidden urge which i can't voice it out. Everytime Jieying says ' i miss Club9!' , I could only reply with a smile and '' ya lor.''
I know to alot of people, it is not a glamorous kinda job, but just so happen that it was my favourite job. In summary, you're paid to DRINK. how pretty is that.
Of cause there's little ugly side, like fighting with other bitches to open bottles, sticking around with customers just so that they'll (hopefully) buy you a lady's drink.

NOW, I've just embarked on another new path of life. Maturing, i would like to called it. Settling down, stuff like that. But suprisingly, I'm willingly to do it. This brings us back to 110709, the day when i met someone who changed my life. The very same person who has thus became my motivation for living. Ok living is too large-scale. He's my motivation for small-scale things like waking up in the morning, looking forward to weekends, stuffs like that.

OKAY gtg back to ''work'' lol. Shal end this post on a lighter note.

Love
You
Lee
Yao
Wei
Kim(:

LOOOONG TIME

2010-01-17T23:44:00.000-08:00

UPDATE people UPDATE LIAO LOHHHHHH :DD

29 Dec

Work.
-_-

30 Dec

Work.
-____-

31 Dec

Half day actually, but nv went work.
(n____n)

01 Jan

.............forgot what i did LOL but anywaes it was the first day of a new year lah!

05 Jan

After work went town with b....bought two sunglasses from Rubi @ $10 each^^ cheapcheap nicenicenice. decided to wear them on our sentosa trip during the weekend :DD

07 Jan

Ponn-ed work againnn. forgot what i do already lol.

08 Jan

Went work......got newyear reception so OT-ed till 7.45pm.
-..-
there goes my friday.
but after work went find B and stayed over (: worth it laaa(:

09 Jan

Woke up, went home bath and prepare, meet b arnd 11pm to have Mac at ECP followed by L4D2 :)))................back to B's and zzzzzzzzzz(B's) ZZZZZZZZZZZ(mine) lol.

10 Jan

Woke up while B still lazy-ing in bed to bath, dry hair, wait for B to bath and prepare, and OFF TO SENTOSA!!!!!!!
HAHAHA initial plan was to wake up at 10.30am but both of slept til 12pm plusplusplus.
reached Vivo arnd 3pm plus, eat, went giant to get the sand mat, apple juice, sun-tan lotion, wangwang crackers etc :D
......reached Sentosa arnd 4pm :))
slack arnd.......left about 6pm plus and back to Vivo for dinner at Superdog:)))
Gtg home at 8pm plus after that as i have work the next day :(

12 Jan

Aft work went to collect the ''initially-meant-to-be-suprise'' for B but in the end he drove me there .
-______-'''''''
hahaha at the Sentosa trip he said wanted to have one as they are very cute.......... so the day after that i reached office str8 away went online to search....... TWO WINTER WHITE DWARF HAMSTERS.
Arranged to meet and collect from that guy at Lakeside MRT station. lol he placed them in a shoe box and i opened it..... SO CUTEEEEEE. Two little furry puddings pop their heads up and kept hiding in the paper. lol i even made a joke about them being just ''man-yue'', as they are only 4 weeks old and have open their eyes two weeks back nia <3<3<3
Then decided to skipped work the next day to play with them :DDDDDD

what a great excuse.
:))

13 Jan

Skipped work
(wuhoo)
While B was having tennis training went to meet up with jieying :D
Had dinner at Modesto (i think that's the name) at Vivo. After which headed to St. James for a little drink while waiting for B to come and fetch me :D
.....aft b's tennis went to eat at chompchomp and back to his place to ZZZZZZZzzzz and more zzzzzzzzzzz

14 Jan

Skipped work again
(WUHOOOOOOOO)
Because.............

ITS MY 1/2 YEAR WITH B !!!!!!!!
aiyoyo time pass so fast sia.
been 6 months since that dumbdumb carried me home from DBL O :DDDDD
love you my lougong(:

15 Jan

Once again its Fridayyyyyyy, the loveliest day of the week.
After work went home for dinner to wait B to end his stupid donno-what ship opening. Aiya in short, he went to open a ship la okay lol.
Went over to B's at arnd 9pm , waited for his friends , used his perfume (LOL), then headed down to Boatquay. Opened 1 martell 1 Chivas, still left a bit of chivas so we tabao-ed and enjoy it while on the way to St. James :DDD
at St james just ANYHOW drink, in which i mean realli ANYHOW drink, cause people just give you and you just ''gurp'' and drink down.
Back to B's aft that :DD

OKAY DONE FOR THE DAY!!!!
Chaos peeps
:D

This is why i love you

2009-12-28T03:41:00.000-08:00

LOOOOOOOOOOOOONG TIME NV UPDATE LIAO :DD
kk in the form of summary (again)

14 Dec

Nv went work. Forgot donno why also LOL. k was joking. IT WAS OUR 5th MONTH MA(:
anywaes, went with Zac, Mar Ke, and B to hav POPEYES. B no money still dig out coins to bring me go eat. Photos taken but cant upload due to siaosiao lappy. And as the next day i got work and no money to eat, B gave me $10, 'just in case' pay haven come in. Seriously. he's the sweetest:DD

15 Dec

Worked. 8.30AM to 10PM. FML

16 Dec

Worked. 8.30 AM to 10PM AGAIN. FMFL.
Lucky B waited for me after work to send me home. sigh its worth the tiredness after all(:

17 Dec

Went work, then B and his friends to Seesha. THE PLACE FREAKING NICE CAN. (ex also la). Not the Cheap-skate kinds that ppl go and sit down on carpets or Hawker Chairs. eewwww. NOPE. its was set on the 2nd storey with air-con and pillows and beer......WUHOO.
By the time we waited for W's suppliers ( only we know what it is), its was close to 2AM. Decided not to go work the next day as i was having headache hence over at B's. LOL. lazy bath so B cleaned me with cloth. MACHIAM PATIENT I SWEAR. off to sleep................

18 Dec

As i said, i didnt went work, slept in till evening, went home, bathed and changed, off to SupperClub. NB. Damn hot can. DANCEFLOOR LIKE NO AIRCON. Lucky we got the VIP TABLES. And guess what. They are BEDSSSSS. omgggg. Saw Ethan, Ivan tay over there. drink dance slack went B's aft that to ZZZZZ.

19 Dec

Wake up, home, bathed and changed, went Wavehouse with B and his friends. First time there, alot of ang mohs. drink abit, then went to fetch his Mum liao. Back to B's , ZZZZZZZZ again.

20 Dec

Home, Bathed, Meet B for awhile before fetching me over to new house for family reunion dinner.

21 Dec

Worked in morning but dint went part time job. Over at B's aft work. Zzzzzzz.

22 Dec

Dint went work...slept with B whole day(: blissssssssssss(:

23 Dec

TADANG. Dint went work. Like AGAIN. lol. slept with B the whole damn day again(:

24 Dec

Went work to discover.........HALF DAY NIA. Over at B's aft work, acc him go cut hair, then at night went over to Cass's for countdown :DDD

25 Dec

CHRISTMASSSSSSS :DD
Had Christmas lunch with B and his Family, then movie at 12.25AM at Cathay. Sherlocks Holmes :DDDD (but was falling asleep as the movie ends around 3AM plusplusplus). Over at B's. ZZZZZZZ.

26 Dec

Woke up, went home rest while B went to hid school's dinner. bathed, changed, then fetched went HomeClub with B, Hanisah, and Jason. Saw Reisha and Mark Koh over there !!!!!! lol overall not bad la the trip(:

27 Dec

Supposed to have work, but ponn-ed again ^^ Acc B and Zac to gym, then subway, and back home to rest for work the next day.

28 Dec

which is TODAY, 8.36PM, im still at work. ZZZZZ. omg gtg smoke before i kill someboooooody.

CHAO PPL(:

Jack of all trades, yet Master of .....none.

2009-12-12T22:15:00.000-08:00

Update liao update liao :DDD
A rather long post cause im combining all the days up la.

4th Dec

Work work work...zzzz -______-
Stay over at b's.
More ZZZZZzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZz :DD

5th Dec

Woke up, left b's house at 7pm, went home rest and bath.
BACK TO B'S HOUSE AT 12AM :DD
watch Moulin Rouge ^^ Onli then i know its prononuced as MouLAN rouge. Doesnt takes a genius to figure out who corrected my pronounciation -____-
After b finish his soccer, went to sleep, kiss me goodnight............

B : *kiss my nose*
me : AWWWWW so sweet
B : ya lor im kissing all your blackheads goodnight too .___.
me : OI (chinese) ai wu ji wu HOR. (translated to english: love me love my blackheads)

.......lol. then zzzzzzz liao :))

7th Dec

B having his MST exams so can meet up awhile nia lor.
went to eat CAR LI PENG at our house market.
simple dinner, but blissful enough(:

8th Dec

meet up with b after work awhile also(:
then drove me home liao(:
..............downstairs in his car ...............

B and me : *talking* *talking* *talking*
B : WAIT ! *tapped on the front light*
me : what what ??
B : look at me *looks at me with THAT look*
me : ??
B : ....you look so beautiful my baby(:

waaaaa NB i swear my heart jitao melted sia! i mean although i KNOW i look damn chui after a day of work, but its so heart-warming to hear these things, especially from your loved ones :DD
......and that's one of the reason why i love him. SORRY LADIES HE'S MINE :DD

9th Dec

Went B's place after work, ate a bit of hor-fun his mum bought, then sat in living room with Zac, Ray, and B to watch X-men -.-.
B was eating his apple when he asked me why i dont want. BECAUSE I EAT IT WITH THE SKIN PEELED OFF :DDDD
....then he continued to watch tv IGNORING ME !!!!
...............................
................................
................................
..............then suddenly he turn to me and said: 'NAH!'
i looked. HE ATE UP ALL THE SKIN AND GAVE ME THE APPLE MEAT (i think that's what u call it la). ALTHOUGH there's alot of bite marks (tsk. EEEeeeee. lol) , but that realli shows how much he loves me.
i swear upon my 19 years of life, on that night that was the sweetest apple i have ever eaten.
loves.

10 Dec

Met up with ZhenRen for dinner with B and Marcus after work at tiong :DDDD
Then went to acc B play golf with shaun while i sat and gossip with ZR :DDDDDD
......Had supper at the butter-chicken-place (at least that's what i call it la) , sent ZR home, then B drove me home at ard 12.30am as i still have work the day after that ZZzzzzzzzzz.

NAHBEH ANOTHER STUN FROM B AGAIN.

B: *driving* you know, i might be the jack of all trades, BUT im the master of your heart.
....CCB. heart just melted that day haven recover yet he chu stun AGAIN.

AWWWWWWW (^-^).

11 Dec

WUHOOOOOO~~~~~~
After work 6pm went home to change.
THAI DISCO AT FORUM AT NIGHT!!!!!!!
Meeting B at the disco as he have dinner and dance till 1am -______-
... so after work, went home change, out again and met ZhenRen in town for dinner at FarEast, sat outside to LITERALLY talk cock sing song (she got a lot of new korean songs).
At around 11.30pm walked to forum, met up with Aurobind and his fren.
.... B came to find me ard 1.30am...drink... then the wonderful evening ends and went his place to sleep.
JITAO TIRED OUT ARH.

12 Dec

Slept til 6pm, went home, bath and rest as the next day (which is today, NOW) got work.

13 Dec

FINALLLY blog for so long its TODAY's entry lol.
Now in office working (face-booking), later 6pm end work B coming pick me up and gg out with his classmates :DDDD

OKAY SHALL STOP HERE LIAO.
Going toilet BANG SAI LIAO.
Eat so much shit out also alot i guess lol.

CHAO People !!!
Shall update whenever i have the time ya(:

Jingle Bell Jingle Bell

2009-11-30T18:55:00.000-08:00

FINALLY i feel christmas's approaching after the brain-washing every morning when i go work (sometimes on off-days too).
THE D-E-C-O-R-A-T-I-O-N-S on the trees lining the whole way.
-________-

b's sick.... and his exam coming soon. hope he gets better.
if not, exam and sick = killer combo man.

Met up with zhenren after my work ytd to town for dinner and slack and gossiping and coffee-ing. Was talking about alot of stuffs that were going on in our lifes. AND we came to the topic : CHRISTMAS WISHES AND PRESENTS.
HAHAHA Bestfrens will always be bestfren man!!!
Her wish was to get a Canon DSLR, while me? a Black Sony Cybershot TX1 or TX90 or TX900. Been eye-ing one since 3672347678432 years ago man.
LOL they all look pretty much the same SIA. But of cause function and resolutions and stuff-wise they differs. She recommended Canon ones, but im not much of a professional leh buy so good one FOR WHAT. plus the sleek-looking cybershot cams are like so fucking chio la.

HENCE I DECIDED LIAO...! Shall save up before christmas to reward myself with it!
Woots never had the strong motivation to do something for so long man ^^ after which whenever i drag B out we can camwhore until we go siao !!! woooooo OKAY i am SO getting the cameraaaaaaaa !

Yawns. k. excitement over. might be updating in the afternoon later on IF i feel like it lol.
fucking sleepy in office mannnnnn. miss ma b so much.
But wish he really sees the change in me. Like not so dependent on him and meeting up everytime. Guess i CAN get used to it ba(:

kk shall stop here. gg smoke.
CHAOOOOOOOO
:DDDDD

HAHAHA kk now's 2.54pm. got to update ONE thing.......

NEXT DESIGN: Barcode :DDD
number wise i donno what to put yet.

All's well, all's well :DD

2009-11-29T19:46:00.000-08:00

YAWNS. Monday morning. booggering. LOL i mean blogging la(:

kkkkkkkkkkk fast fast recap before i forget :

19 Nov

Lappy STILLLLLLL can't open internet browser -..-
At work....freaking tired....then suddenly recieved msg from b
'' oi can come down smoke anot ''
HE WAS DOWNSTAIRSSSS MY OFFICE !!!!
wootwoot :DD damn happy la..went down..smoke...acc him go eat...shop awhile before i rmb im still working LOL. bought me Auntie AnnIES cinnamon sugar then im back to office while b went home to change to go his swimming thing in town lo.

25 Nov

Nv went work. Slept over at b's. Something happened the night before WHAT. Shall not mention it ever again except for the phrase '' how dare you''. okay enough said.

27 Nov

Suppose to club or drink BUT went to watch Newmoon
-__________-

28 Nov

went to watch Case 39
^_______^

29 Nov

Sunday. Working. Been working for the whole damn week.
Aft work went to b's place, drove me, Zac, his mumm, mummy's sisterS to Great World City to shop and walk ard.
ORH HOR.
Now then i know watch 'Hangover' that time, it was CINDY who interrupted!!!!!!!!!
KNNBCCB. i take Narutos figurines and stuff them up her whatever holes she got then she know lim bu eh power arh !!!!!!!!! retarded bitch come disturb my date with my b, slap her give her fly high high siol.

kk shall update til here nia. gg lunch time liao ^^
Chap ppl :DDD

Last BUT not least,
wo hou oi lei arh Lou Gong
<3

second thoughts

2009-11-16T18:28:00.000-08:00

10.28am.

must be wondering why im blogging at the start of day. well just wanna make a note-to-self kinda shit.

ytd he had flu. went his place to find him aft work. was drizzling but still went to find and buy his snacks n swts anywae. went up. saw his relatives.
went to his rm, didnt look at me for more than 10 secs. n kept on with his game. pestered him for his attention, but he couldnt care less. wanting to leave, thats when he stopped me. whats the use? when i was right infront of you, you dont giv a shit. when i wanted to leave to avoid any conflicts, thats only when u stop me. whats the fucking point. and he didnt even bother to send me to the lift. haha wat a joke. was still waiting, though kept rejecting him, but please dont forget something my dear. after all, im still a girl. i need your attention sometimes.
i know its a small incident, but it realli reflects what kinda person u are.
Back home, he even tries to explain himself, saying what gaming shit. so its my fault for getting pissed when u neglect me for your fucking retarded game when i go n find u aft my wrk? Perhaps he's one of those fucking morons that love playing com games and watching animes. No offence, but indeed those are fucking morons.

fine. whats past is past. sent him msg tis morning. didnt plan to but did anywae. he haven replied.
i've oready put down my pride. what more you want.
saw him online. y can he go online but cant reply me.

just wanna let him know,
dont take things for granted.
y not take a step back in time, and imagine when we just started together.
will you treat me this way?

AIYOYO~~~~~~

2009-11-16T00:06:00.000-08:00

Once again............

HAPPI 4TH MTH MY DEAREST !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (and manymany more to come ^^)

OMGOMGOMG so happy laaa :DD

although didnt REALLY celebrate it, but as usual i still owe the same old present.
and that is ...............................

LYWK (short-form for LeeYaoWeiKim) ^^

yeap my dear IS oready my present.
except for the fact that he's priceless piece of shit (just kiddin').
well he is my...... guess u can call it precious. like one and only on earth, u know. totally impossible to find another of him.
Like no way man.

and ya. am in office now..suddenly tot of posting as well cause lappy can't open internet explorer browser but msn are all doing fine -_____-. FTW.

HENCE i've decided it'll be a thank-you post entry. And the subject? of cause its u-know-who la(:

yea so i'll like to start by thanking him for....... OMFFFF so many things to list out. im definitely not trying to make him out as though he's damn ''( insert chinese words) : wei da'' or what but too bad matter-of-fact is that, he is.

v(^-^)v

So here it goes:
first of all, thanks for his patience towards me (pardon me for not listing out ALL the incidents in which he displayed the above mentioned virtue as it'll take me quite a few days. JUST JOKIN' im just kinda lazy to list them all out lol).
yea...next up is his care and love. I KNOW I KNOW these two words are on top of the ''most-cliche-love-words-of-all-time-list'' but truth is HE IS VERY CARING OKAY. well at least to me and only me :DD
.........and though times and times again i've been tryin to push him away when he tried to understand me, he had not given up on me (but see from his jiao-bin very pe ce liao) so i'm thankful for that as well (:
hmmmm.........

OKAY
and there's my pride. like what's new man. been telling myself COMPROMISE COMPROMISE COMPROMISE ! but not acting it out.
WILL CHANGE ONE B :D

sometimes i realli wonder sia : HOW CAN SOMEONE TAHAN A GF LIKE.........ME?!!!!!!!

well heng ar got a dumbdumb that did it. LOL.

okayokay gonna stop here and go FB liao. cant post pics as like i said earlier, lappy siaosiao T_____T. HANG ON FOR DEM THOUGH!!!!

P.S. : and im so damn looking forward to meting ZR laaaa!!!! That si zhar bo MIA so damn long liao. Oh-so-many things to tell her and gossip about.

Chao for now people((:

cant think of any

2009-11-10T01:27:00.001-08:00

in office.

5.28pm

im so tired.

eh eh

2009-11-08T06:53:00.001-08:00

Shall let the pictures do the talking tis time round :DD

In the Tarot

2009-11-05T23:23:00.000-08:00

The Fool comes to the foot of an enormous black mountain where reigns a creature half goat, half god. At his hooves, naked people linked to the god's throne by chains, engage in every indulgence imaginable: sex, drugs, food, gold, drink. The closer the Fool gets, the more he feels his own earthly desires rising in him. Lust, passion, obsession, greed. "I refuse to give into you!" he roars at the Goat god, resisting with all his might. The creature returns a curious look. "All I am doing is bringing out what is already in you," the beast responds. "Such feelings are nothing to fear, nothing to be ashamed of, or even to avoid." The Fool gestures angrily at the chained men and women, "You say that even though they are enslaved?" The Goat-god mimics the Fool's gesture. "Take another look."

The Fool does so, and realizes that the chained collars the men and women wear are wide enough for them to easily slip off over their heads. "They can be free if they wish to be," the Goat-god says, "Though you are right. I am the god of your strongest desires. But you see here only those who have allowed their base, bestial desires to control them." At this the Goat-god gestures upward, toward the peak of the mountain. "You do not see those who have allowed their impulses and aspirations to take them up to the top of that mountain. Inhibitions can enslave as easily as excesses. They can keep you from following your passion to the highest heights." The Fool realizes the truth in this, and that he has mistaken the Goat-god. Here he understands now that it is not a creature of evil, but of great power, the lowest and the highest, both of beast and god. Like all power it is frightening, and dangerous...but it is also the key to freedom and transcendence if understood and well used.

BEAUtiful sundaeeeeeeeeeeee (eee)

2009-10-24T20:48:00.001-07:00

HELLO hello!

lol been busy wif work n slp n shit n stuff. no time to blog niggaaaaAAAAaaaaa!
anywae anywae, summary 1st, just in case i forgot wat happen after loong time :DD

19th Oct:

OFF AT WORKKKKK cuz holiday from saturday pushed forward to Monday, which is this day ^^ donno wat national day for PRC or deepavali. forgot liao. Anywaes was off at work, hence went out with b ^^ took bus to town, and i cant believe dere's somebooooody who dint know about the under-pass to wisma -..-'''' jitao pe ce arrrr. (retardly stupid, but i still love him leh) went to get dinner at the taka the below level, den b tell me about his hildhood stories. LOL. he said three of dem (him, zac, and ray) wlways get lost when dey were young n go shopping wif their parents and kanna found at the lost n found counter LOL. cant imagine how dey look like sia. Like kim's the ''lao da'', den got two ''siao di'' following behind as dey march around the shopping centre. like cute totally la ^^

20 Oct:

went work AS USUAL (tell me more abuot tuesday blues huh) after a day off on monday. tiring day, but guess wat.....b went to suprise me at work place !!! he was waiting for me to end work downstairs la. freaking touched la. was trying to keep my cool but wondered if he could tell la. tat dumb dumb of mine. lol. went dinner after tat lor. cant be out for long as i have work the next day T_T

22 Oct:

Had a really bad day at work, tired, frustration, errors that have to be amended in data base and im not talking about a small figure. SIGH. anywaes, after work, b came to suprised me (again) ^-^ was realli realli realli happi and just makes you feel like giving him a tight hug until both of his D-cups flatten, but all i could do was just stood down dere without much expressions as i was still in the state of sheer exhaustion/ shock/ hungriness. den he brought me to have Burger King (like in a million year) and he had the new spicy crispy chix (i tink that's the name for the burhger) den i had the turkey bacon. AND he told me bacon made of pork. i stunned tio for awhile. PLS LOR. like i ate so many years liao. I DIE DIE DON BELIEVE . NEVER. RWARRR. after dinner, initial plan was to head to Mount Faber to chill, but.......................WELL lets not go to that part shall we :))
............................. P.S.: i promised myself to wait til 11.30pm. well you always said i never keep any promises, but for this i kept it. yes, for myself.

23 Oct

Puffer fish goes to work, den after work accompany b to queue to see MP guy (i tink tats the name) to defer his army. WALAOEH KNLBCCB waited til 10PM PLUS !!!!!!!
To the uncle typing his letter: HOOD JI LIAP HOR YI SI AR! TYPE SO SLOW! _l_ x 9999999999
Planned to go Sunpperclub after tat, but in the end zac said 30 Bucks not worth it (i totally agree la) den nvr go, went his hse to sleep n snore (of cause) while he played majiong with MarKe and ppl. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz -____-

24 Oct

Woke up and went home to bath, prepare, den meet b in town for dinner and (AHEM) shopping ^^ bought his tennis balls den went cine to get my studds den went coffee bean for chill den home liao. Simple but a beautiful saturday evening for me(: (apart from the shopping part laaaaa)

25 Oct

.....which is TODAY AND NOW, im in office lor. yawnssss. prolly gg for a puff aft the entry due to low nicotine level.
Weather: Going to rain just now, got thunder abit, then now sunny again. What a BEAUtiful island we have.
Food Level: Average lor, after one Otah bread, one Sausage bread, one Ham n Cheese Bread i ta bao-ed to work
Water Level: Quite thristy eh. Bought Pepsi to work ^^
Status: Missing b so much. Hope he can meet me for dinner tonight. Nxt wkend he gg advanced diving course AGAINNNNNN. OMG. but, i've got my plans. (if your reading this, RELAX, not clubbing or anything u dont like OKAY). hmmm :))

Sudden inspiration (like again):

Love is when.....................

When i think of you Wherever i am, Whatever i am doing, Whoever i am with, and Wondering whether you are doing the same too, or What will you be doing at the moment.

When i feel sad so long as i don't smell your perfume simply because it gave me a sense of security as i know that you are near me.

When i don't feel your hand and warmth and feeling so out-of-place.

When i don't see your smiles and funny faces all day and so looking forward to it at the end of the day as it is what keeps me going.

When i don't hear your voice comforting me and calling me baby ( or ''you this piece of shit'' for that matter LOL) and know deep inside that no one else can replace you because you are the only one that can call me that.

OKAY i type until my neck sibeh suan liao. Next time got time or inspiration then i continue okay people ? ^^

GTG smoke now liao.
CHAOOOOOOOO~

3rd month 3rd month 3rd month :DD

2009-10-15T01:26:00.001-07:00

wait wait wait! first of all...............

Happi 3rd Month to my dearest b :DD !!!!!

Woots. time flies man. 3 months since i met the dumb dumb at Dbl o :D

still rmb he damn funny la. lol. scared i rape him onli. kept insisted on slping on the slping bag. LOL. Den kept check whether im crying when we're chatting the night thru. lol. flashback baby.

13 Oct

went to james' bbq wif b, zac, and the very jiao-wei shaun. LOL. at the bbq:

Me: what a bad boyfren. onli take food for himself. eat eat eat -..-

Zack: What a bad brother -___-'''

Shaun: WHat a fren ! onli know how to eat n eat n eat ! T_T

still dare complain alot of corns in your shit.

LOL. eat for like 20 mins den went to b's golf lesson liao. LOL. while the instructor went to show him n shaun the video, zac n i went to test test the club n stuff. one word: PAI-SEH -.-

den went to Killineys to have supper, as well as to count down our 3rd month :DD the butter chicken damn nice la! like totally man ^^

14 Oct

Ytd just before im gg to end work b msg me. say what he at tiong gg over find me. LOL. nabeh. actually he was oready downstairs my office wanting to give ma a suprise. omggggg. No wonder he said he's been trying to find out wher's my exact location as he wanted to suprise me. NO WONDER. kept texting me. lol. how sweet of that retard :))

went down...and outside of tower 2 to smoke...den he handed me smth......

OMFG. fuck la. i just touched my make-up up in office before i left. MUST NOT CRY WENCUI!

lolololololol. tat dumb b of mine still say: 男左女右 correct? CORRECT??

......after tat went flyers to have popeyes....LOL saw fred! he loner sia walkin alone ^^

after tat sit ard...talk....den back to b's place to sleep. and SNORE of cuz v^-^v.

YAWNS. and he n zack are at motor lesson now. me rotting at home. New habit: every now and then i'll just take the ring from the box to see it. omg. don dare to wear it. frankly if i lose it i'll probably bawl my eyes out like seriously man.

P.S. : you were so damn right when u said: although u might be strong on the outside, but you have the most fragile heart i've ever seen. im so sorry b.

Love you so much, dearest.

OK! tat's it! gg tv n bath liao peeps ! :))

chao ^^

<3 <3 <3

2009-10-10T02:42:00.000-07:00

YAWNS. lol. wat a nice way to start a post.

work makes me sooo tired. mentally mostly. sucks big time man. and i onli hav saturday to sleep in as sunday im workng AGAIN. sundays blues. omffffffffffff.

well anwae this post is gonna be about how i feel i guess. need to make a note. lol. just in case i forget how i felt about a particular thing, event, or person u know. lol. omg why am i so amused.

OK. anywaes, now its 5.41pm saturday aftnoon. but something that happened s few days back still caught up in my mind. or rather something that he said.

''are you so afraid to lose me that you must meet me everyday?''

i've no idea why this particular line is still stucking in my head. well perhaps i know. because they always say, the thing that bothers you the most is usually the thing that is true. BUT seriously speaking im not such a person (OK AT LEAST I TINK). like totally. then why the fuck am i so bothered about what he said. especially that line.
That particular line. Mayb he didnt realli mean it, i dont know. But one thing's for sure. He dont know how much it stabbed my heart when he said it. By now he should more or less know that im damn fucking sensitive to somethings that he do or say. simply put, by saying wat he said, it made me felt so unwanted. its like im so damn despo to meet him and stuff. like im in fact demanding to meet him. omg. it made me felt so bad. like seriously.
sigh. he'll nvr know how it realli liek hurt me u know. i dont mean to sound oh-so-fragile or watever shit. but thing is i was, or still am sad. but well i'll be ok after in few days' time.

okok. shall stop nagging here. need to go bath n rest awhile. headin social house lata i guess.

Bye ppl :'l

ZZZZzzzzz + SNORES + mumble3

2009-10-04T00:19:00.000-07:00

YAWNS.

lazy sunday afternoon again.

was actually lazy to post and update, but since've got nothing betta to do, might as well :)) lest fungus starts growing on me. (plus point ---> free mushrooms) kiddin la.

ALOT happen. at least i think so. sudden PMS-es, tiredness, lots more la. shit man. realli damn lazy to elaborate further. LOL. k la. shall make this post an ahem point-form SUMMARY again:

1)LATELY, somebooooody don't even want to talk to his girlfren siol. (U KNOW WHAT IM TALKIN ABOUT) LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.

2) saw her msg while changing his screensaver. great. made my day. what cn spell whore betta den this

3) yawns spent most of time working. OMFG. its so tiring.

4) just had one WHOLE durian by myself. mum shocked. me damn full. (bo bian ma. learning to eat for someboooody)

OK OK OK that's all i can think of. shall go back to my nap. todae= nother off day burnt. seriously, sigh.

chao people.

POP POP POP YOUR EYES

2009-09-27T01:23:00.000-07:00

SHAWT CUTT AGAIM:

FINALLY wkend is here. slept for the whole of saturday, til at night went b's hse to wait for his soccer match to end b4 gg eat dinner. NAH BEH. DAMN OBVIOUS he thinks i donno about soccer HOR.

Me: Oi you support which team
He: the BLACK COLOUR one

TSK. just say MAN U LARH. I KNOW ONE HOR. small look me.

After the soccer match ended (like FINALLY SIOL) b drove us to POPEYES for dinner ^^ OMG!!!!! damn happi can. worth the wait. like totally :DD

eat eat, talk talk, den went Mount Faber to enjoy breeze ^^ not bad not bad, just nvr buy hoon ki -___-

OK tats it !
chao popele! i mean PEOPLE. too much popeyes liao :))

SUM SUM SUM summary :))

2009-09-20T02:40:00.000-07:00

18 Sep: Was temp-ing receptionist at Mastercard int. when after lunch time saw ASP's david chew !!!! lol. ( last time pub customer) damn shocked la. LOL. was kinda bored the whole day, and the hurting lungs doesnt made it better man. luckily was meeting zhenren for dinner after work. MOTIVATION baby :)))
meet her at town ard 7.30pm, went cine for dinner...den walk ard.. chat... when she suggested going esplanade -..- hahaha it was fun though, she bought candy floss (purple = very zhenren), and i bought popcorn (sugar-ed ones T_T) and had ourselves sat on the steps by the river and talk. btw realli hope she's ok, with regards to her family ting. god bless my fren ok :)
after that b and zac came find us after their gym/golf/tennis session -___-. stooopid sia. can even find car park. actually wanted to go Lau Ba Sa eat one, but zac not feeling well so headed home. heng he nvr fainted on the way home !!!!! den b sent zhenren home, den went home to bath. (By now i tink shud be 19 Sep liao.)

19 Sep
b drove us to East Cpast Park at 3AM for CARL's JR!!!!!!!! OMFOMFOMF. damn happi can :DD aft tat show me his old houses. trust me, its FARKING HUGE. and his old shop KIMZARA. hahaha. donno y the name just made me laugh sia. btw we return back home was ard 6plus. jiktao headed to bed :DDDD

2nd Month de celebration :DD

2009-09-15T06:58:00.000-07:00

Woots!!!!

...went to meet b at 7pm for our 2nd month celebration :))

actually had POPEYES in mind, but.....

B : NO ! NO POPEYES !

me : WHYYYYYYY -_____- sian1/2

B : because the traffic noe is like sai, and i oready made reservations at a jap restaurant ^^

me : WTF !? need to be so '' long zhong '' meh??

B : ^-^

and off we went to MINORI :DD

food was nice...especially the shishamo and soft shell crab handroll ! just that b kept forcing me to eat the yellow tail slices and others T_T. I KNOW he wants me to enjoy good and healthy food, BUT dey just tastes like -.- and the texture are ..... -.- BUT i will learn to eat dem sooner or later k B !!!

after that went to fetch Zac and Marcus to join us for karaoke at Katong :))) WALAOEH. the children ghost stories dey said were creeping me out la k ! WTF. Marcus said that time dey were playing hide-and-seek inside the mall, and two of dem were running, but CCTV onli showed one of dem running at high-speed. Like just zoomed past la. OMGGGGG. i was creeping out man.

den after karoke, went to play pool for awhile , den i suggested L4D :DDDD

AND dey chose SURVIVAL MODE -..- NO WONDER, the enemies like forever neverending one siol.

.......

after we finish playing it was about 4am, den B asked me whether wanna beer anot.

me (of course) : v(^-^)v

....den b's hse to drink....LOL. not forgetting our 2nd month's toast :)))

and here i am, at home blogging about the day's event ^^

OK shall end it here 1st. gtg eat dessert liao :))))

CHAO PPL :))

god bless.

黑皮2nd MONTH B ~~~~

2009-09-14T00:15:00.000-07:00

lolololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololololol becuz......

黑皮2nd MONTH B ~~~~

lol. ytd went to serangoon for supper wif b, his bro, and yifeng. donno y but just keep thinking of tis:

when crossing road.....

B: got car got car, walk faster la (pushing me)
B: Oi i save your life hor, you must yi shen xiang xu
me: -..- zebra-crossing there onli ma (pointing towards 3 steps away from us)
B: oi you don like that leh
me: L O L

lol. mayb im starting to take note of the minor things that happen. u know. lol. ok. gonna stop here liao. gg eat green bean soup.

CHAOOO PPL :DDD

loving him more as each day passes by

TGFE (Thank God For Everything)

2009-09-11T22:53:00.000-07:00

im so glad i've frens who were dere when i needed dem the most.

im so glad that i've someone loving me so much too :))

.

2009-09-08T02:46:00.000-07:00

i am

backing up.

if wasnt for zhenren
i will be walking this road alone.

u wil nvr know the sadness.

unbearable

2009-09-06T05:24:00.000-07:00

short-cut:

b brought me to Timbre. lol. 1st time dere. DON SAY IM SUA GU HOR. love the band ! (think dere're called goodfellas). seriously realli njoyed it n thanks b for bringing me dere. luvman.

working...suntec n moshi2...

and now im feeling like one fuck. bleeding worsened over the evening. tmr or tues ZR accompanying me for scan. dint want to tell him lest he thinks im being so drama. n the tot of it just saddens me. but guess i just need someone by my side. god bless. right now im feeling so ironic. On one hand im afraid he might leave me for whatever shit's going, but on the other i wanna persuade him to find someone else. i realli don deserve him. don wana drag him down . and im not saying this because i wan to seem oh-so-great or what. it's because i love this guy. simple as that.
sometimes deep down i agree with him whenever he joked that im a piece of shit. i am, indeed.

something's very wrong.
the pain's getting unbearable.
feels as if dey're pulling themselves out from my body.
omfg.
mayb i shud just disappear
to shorten the pain

IS THERE ANY BAR NEARBY? its lunchtime -.-

2009-09-02T07:07:00.001-07:00

LOL PAISEH SHORT-CUT AGAIN :

went to do roadshow in morning. LOL. tat stupid ang mo. ask me '' is there any BAR nearby? '' he asked me at 12PM. WTFWTFWTF. aft tat rushed to lavender (kallang) to sign my agreement, aft which rushed to wisma for ma interview again ^^ hired on the spot for MoshiMoshi Jewellery ^^ tmr's gonna be a tiring day again mna. After roadshow gonna rush to wisma for my job. But at least wat Jieying said was correct la: working DO helps to get my mind off b's absence :))) but still, i miss him loads.its like, i'll think of what is he doing, will he think of me, and is he thinking of me at the point of time im thinking of him :))) sigh. MA SI BO BIAN. hav to wait til weekend no matter wat -..-

OOOKIE DOKEY. gonna stop here. feet pain like sai la. stood all day. gtg rest liao.
Chao peeps !
god bless :DD

two weeks, as in REALLI two weeks

2009-08-31T23:18:00.000-07:00

short-cut :DD

30 August:

When b's place...showed me his childhood pictures (OMFGGGGG) and told me his childhood stories (LOL). The most vivid one in my mind was the crayon one. he was still young den one day b took crayon and drew a line on the wall. LOL and then he used his body to cover it and kepy crying when his mum walked pass. LOL. seriously damn cute can! hahaha we lay on bed and chatted til about 6am when i fell aslp and b talked to himself for a further 10 mins as he dint know i was aslp UNTIL he heard my snoring. ^^

31 august:

initally wanted to go back to queensway to celebrate teacher's day, but cant make it in time as stayed over at b's the night before. rushed home for interview in aftnoon, but manager wasnt in, so was told to go back ard 7pm. Hav an hour of allowance, so went cineleisure to find ng min, valencia, audrey, zhenren for dinner at hong kong cafe ^^ den went back for interview, and then went raffles city to find zhenren and her bf to chill at starbucks :D waited for b to come...an while i was at toilet tat dumb b went market place to buy ingredients (minced beef and pasta sauces) to cook FOR ME. lol. silly b. was damn touched la. den went his hse and TADANG~ WE COOKED ONE HOR: (k la i did the stirring and stuff ^^ most of it thanks to b)

01 september:

woke up liao, b rushing for his on-board time. he took off first, while i waited for rain to stop. LOL. took buz from his hse the bustop, alighted at BM interchange, den took nother bus to stop at MY SIDE of the road -..- after tat waited for rain to stop at blk 96, den a malay guy offer to shelter me to my block. SERIOUSLY. im damn thankful la. god bless him man :DD den home liao, blog, Facebook, msg b. tried to upload pics on blog, but tink cuz of connection problems couldnt do so at the moment -_____-

OK. tats it for now ! gtg for dinner liao.
Chao ppl ^^

SUNDAE=RAIN=OFFICE=BURP

2009-08-29T22:34:00.001-07:00

YAWNS.

its a rainy sunday morning. i SHUD be at home lying on ma bed til evening (OMFG damn tempting sial). BUT, im here in office typing tis stupid entry. just had mee and bee hoon (mum packed for me ^^). she damn cute sia. it initially was from the market, u know the packet kind, the mee and bee hoon below and ingredients on top. Den she help me put into the lunch box and open it for me to see like : 'TADANG! SEE! EASIER TO BRING!' LOGICALLY SPEAKING, when u switched the food from the packet to the box, shud be mee and bee hoon on top of the ingredients right? BUT NO. its was nicely placed in the box ( ingredients on top, mee and bee hoon below). den i asked her: ' shudnt be the other way round meh??' den she: ' LOL, i jitao slide the whole packet of food into the box :DDD'

-________- SLIDE. she even added the sound effect: '' SHUUU the food down the packet into the box''

LOLOLOLOLOL. buey tahan her la. just now in the morning( still quite sunny tat time) she went to do the laundry. 4mins later, i saw her taking the laundry back. LOL. cuz it started to rain. she even commented: ' jiak ba bo sai bang. i take the laundry in the sun for 5 mins and take back in again. -..-' LOL. i was utterly speechless (almost choked on my bread).

AND EVIDENTLY, im was bored now. i can spent 2/3 of the entry talking about a packet of mee cham bee hoon breakfast. HENCE, shall stop here. cont when i get home later ba ^^

LOL penguuuuuuuuin

2009-08-28T11:10:00.000-07:00

YAY!!!!!

b nv went on board today as his muscles aching ^^

TOOK HIS PASSPORT PIC LOL:

...tat idiot saw me takin it and asked: '' got wat diff? the hair right? which hair betta?''

before i cn reply he piak me on the face -..-

aft which i said: '' u look fatter now lor''

LOL him: '' I KNEW u going to say tat ! tats y slap u 1st!''

hahaha kk short post again...gonna hit my food again liao. Chao ppl !
god bless :DDD

Saying

2009-08-26T07:47:00.000-07:00

nothing much todae.
nuahed. swollen eyes. right side gastric hurts lyke big fuck.

he said to have the thinking, that even if he's not by my side, his heart will always be with me, and tat he'll always be mine. yea i know that. but it just seemed so hard to work it out when it comes to the real situation. my god. cant believe tat i realli broke down infront of him. im just so sad. Though i know he'll onli be gone sailing for 2wks, it still makes me so, well sad. mayb im just too used to have him by my side i guess. My onli hope, or can onli hope for, is :

FASTER LET THE TWO WEEKS PASSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

Jy came to talk to me online. told her the situation. she said:

i understand tt kind of feeling

juz see how long it can last lor... i noe it sounds very -ve but ...... reali lyk theres no choice now

=[

even the person whu brought us tgt said so. omg. seems lyke im not the onli one tat's so. fucked.
Mayb the company of his frens is much more den being wif me after all.
aiyo. im so lorso until i myself oso cant tahan sia. k la. shall end here. nites peeps.

P.S: B ar,
you've no idea how much i love you.
its more than ' head over heels' can even describe.

And and , just came across these words lol:

Im gonna write ''I MISS YOU'' on the all bricks and hope one of them falls on your head so you know how it hurts to miss someone like you. LOL. ( imagine the scene LOL)

2 wks

2009-08-25T11:42:00.000-07:00

sometimes

i realli wish i wasnt such a whinny bitch after all.

it irritates ppl, n well i am.

ma life officially went into a new low

金

2009-08-24T12:37:00.000-07:00

如果你问我, 最幸福的事是什么
我也许会回答:

是当有某人默默地在旁照顾你, 守护你. 没有任何条件, 或要求任何者利益地去爱你,
去疼你.

这就我最幸福的事.

这一次,

我想我应该是真的爱上他le (cant find the fucking chinese word in the online dictionary).

:))))

AH~

2009-08-23T06:40:00.001-07:00

short-cut again :

went to work in morning...freezing all the way -..-

..met b for dinner. passed me his thumb-drive for Bruno LOL. gonna watch it tmr i tink. had LJS. den headed home as we both (sick cats) need to rest.

sudden inspiration :D (veri short onli la)

without you by my side, i cant feel.
neither can i talk, think, or breathe.
luv ya b :))

Okie gotta end here. gtg rest soon.
nites peeps!
god bless :))

More of an OMFG, a little of LOL

2009-08-22T03:44:00.000-07:00

OMFGGGGG.

short-cut to ytd nite's event:

went to moon bar wif yong xing. LOL. got KINDA tired dere. the boss saw me and asked his fren to ask me whether im interested in working dere. 12 BUCKS per hour holyshit. tempting sia. b came to find me from his fren's 21st bd. WAT DO I KEEP DESTROYING PEOPLE'S 21ST BIRTHDAYS??? fk.

anywae said alot things tat i shudnt hav said to b. IM SORRY. as in seriously. omg. i dint want him to think that im limiting his freedom or watever shit, but what i've portrayed seemed as though i AM tat way. wtf. and i don understand y b can put up wif me for all these. frankly if i hav a gf lyke me, i'll vomit blood/ kill her den vomit blood.

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fast-forward~~

....back to b's place. b changed n put me to bed while i smelt lyke a rotten piece of cuttlefish. OYA i broke my sandals once again. GRREEAATT. woke up...ask b to cook mee for me. OKAY, gonna be a lil drama here: the noodle tasted like the best food in the world. nothing can beat it, not even buddha-jump-over-the-wall or abalone or watever delicacies u name. hahaha. lyke wat he always said, perhaps its cooked ''showered with love'' :DDDD

OK. gonna make myself promise him something:

I WILL NVR GET SO DRUNK EVER AGAIN (AT LEAST I TRY MA BEST) AND DISRUPT HIS GATHERINGs WIF HIS FRENS. LUVS B :))

hav been askin myself or even god. wat did i do to deserve this ? it sounds lyke a tragedy here, but pls read on OK. i mean, did i realli done alot of good deeds and in return karma sent me an (LOL) angel? SERIOUSLY LA i dont tink so leh. i throw cigarette butts outta the window after smoking, pretend to be sleeping on trains (SOMETIMES ONLI HOR) so i don ever hav to let my seat out, often laugh at people's misfortune, etc LOLOLOLOLOL. just afraid god might, one day, find out that i've been awarded wif good karma instead of the bad ones, and decided to take it all away. i will definitely be very sad. devastated. no. no words can describe then.

alrighty, dumoed my loads liao. gtg jiak dor (7th month) wif family liao.

chao peeps !!!
god bless yow :))

FOOD REPUBLIC: KILLER

2009-08-20T10:31:00.000-07:00

LOL just back from movie with b...went for interview at NY skin solutions. (ryan's cousin intro one) :DD TI GONG POR BI.

den once again, dua-ed ryan and kelvin for dinner. LOL. meet b for movie LAST HOUSE ON THE LEFT. nice ! sorta reminded me of WRONG TURN. think cause of the landscape n settings. lots of gore too.

den b sent me home as he needed to go sch early in morning + its 7th month -.- ...njoyed the ride back home more than the movie siaaa. lol. n he said MAYB he's gg to cook SPAG GA TII tmr :DDDDD omg. damn swt can. as the saying goes: in order for the woman to grab the heart of a man, you'll need to grab his stomach 1st. it works the same for women too i guess :)))) (though he kinda failed on his maggie mee tat time T_____T).

...just had tau huey/huay.. nice cuz im hungry i tink. OYA. talking about food now. DON EVER EAT AT FOOD REPUBLIC AGAIN SIAAA. damn ex la dey. my nasi lemak onli got dish cake, hotdog, fried sotong thingy, set me back 4.6 DOLLAAAAAAA. AI SI SIA. (make mental note to onli eat dere when 1. im damn hungry or 2. im feeling damn rich )

DISCUSSION OF FOOD REPUBLIC WIF FREDRIK:

[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
prawn noodle lol
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
u leh?
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
4.6 nasi lemak
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
DAMN EX
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
onli got fish cake, hotdog, sotong
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
haha walao
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
can die sia
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
where u go find this kinda of nasi lemak sia
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
so excuisite
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
hahaha!
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
NICE PHRASING
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
FOOD REPUBLIC
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
KANNNN EX ar
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
hahaha no wonder lah
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
food republic the thing CANNOT eat one!
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
hahaha super ex sia
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
lol and its like normal food only
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
i REALISED TAT
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
EX AR
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
wahahahha
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
tmr go burn them down
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
lol
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
drive one limosine full of cooking oil into their stalls
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
hahaha and go rub 2 sticks until got sparks
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
then throw the spark inside hahaha!
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
1) i don hav car
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
2) the food republic is located at level 3
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
3) i got lighter LEH
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
hahahaha
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
1) can rent one mah
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
2) hahaha drive up the carpark and ram it over the roof to wisma
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
3)hahaha like that then got the excietment mah!
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
lol rub as fast as u can light and run
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
first one to do it will get a free propangn bomb for ur next mission
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
L O LLL
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
bt i like the reward!!
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
no laaa
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
we went the vivo one
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
lata we happi happi burn the place 4got abt the car
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
drive inside water
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
wahahaha
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
oooh vivo ah that one tricky ah
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
lol use airplane i guess lol
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
ka ka ram only
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
lol dont need the car lah
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
borrow from friend
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
then tell him the car he nvr pay road tax kana taken and destroyed liao
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
l o lllllll
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
ALL ThIS!!
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
just cause of a plate of
ileum--... im still breathing. says:
NASI LEMAK

[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
hahaha THEY MUST PAY!
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
lol
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
FOR THE EXPENSIVE FOOD!
[c=32]- freDICK -[/c] /// says:
hahaaha the rest of the stall holders there will be like "wtf did i do to deserve this?!?"

LOLOLOLOLOL was practically LMFAO man ~

OKEY DOKEY. gonna stop here. neck pain + left toe cramp + sleepiness.
nites everyboooooooooooooooody ~
:D
god bless.

OOOPPPSSS

2009-08-18T09:00:00.000-07:00

just back from dinner wif mum at bugis.... the ''you tiao'' veh nice :DD

..after tat went to have dessert. sis ordered egg pudding and i had almond paste. NOT BAD LA. tink cuz i had it after two bowls of rice -.-. kan full siaaaaa.

LOL. after tat went to meet b for a short while as he needs to study for his test tmr. LOL.

secret: after tat went home n propaganded mum to drink. den went down kopitiam to get 4 bottles :DDDD ( by the time b reads this it'll be too late liao) FINE LA I BROKE MA PROMISE BUT IM REALLI BORED AT HOME OK.

...kwang wei asked me to volunteer for his blood taking thing tmr. I SAID YES. shit. WTF DID I DO TAT FOR?! ._____. gtg SP at 6pm den. OMFG.

OKIE. shall stop here. cont wif my thang :)))

nites in advance peeps !

C.S (chua sai)

2009-08-17T11:55:00.000-07:00

yo peeps~~~

FIRST OF ALL

SI BF. mailto:%5E&*Y&@Y#&$(#**#$. FK. came to find me for awhile after his company dinner. scare me from my hse staircase. result? C.S.

now as im posting this entry, a series of events are going on:

im asking fredrik about his excused-BMT .
AND he's telling me about his plan to draw pokemons EVERYDAY as a symbol of ranks -.- I CHOOSE U ! LMAO. tat gila guy lol.
my stomach is 'gruuuuu-ing'.
my right leg is veri itchy and im scratching it.
im dozin' off.
im missing AHEM.

SIGH. must wait til thurs b4 he's OFFICIALLY MINE (muahahahahahahahaha) (for the holiday la). KANSIAN

ITS OK! MOTIVATION MOTIVATION MOTIVATION WENCUI !

omfg i mangaged to type out 3 motivation ( now its the 4th) without any spelling error. my eyes realli closing siaaaaaa. AN ACHIEVEMENT! watever. lol. omg. im realli going bonkers. yawns.

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OK FINE. I CANT TAKE IT LIAO. gtg slp. HENG AR. brushed ma teeth just now liao. if not will be damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn lazy to move my ass now.

am even lazy to blog. by 'copy-and-paste' so many 'DAMN', i assume my post will seem longer ya? LOL.

OK. gg slp liao. neck stil hurts a lil.

nites peeeeeeeeeeeeeps!
god bless la.

MAN YUE celebration :)))

2009-08-15T09:06:00.000-07:00

WOOOOOTS~!

...kk summarise summarise :

went to Sunset Grill to see people eat buffalo wings cuz i don take spicy food -___-
dey ranges from level 1 to 30, and jieying onli ordered level 4 eat til damn gang kor liao LOL. b gav me a 1cm x 1cm piece of chicken SKIN nia i oso eat until T____T lol. joke mannn. den after eating went to yishun dam for a while. before tat onli heard of tat place nia...nvr been dere. conclusion: BUEY PAI EH~ lol. can go dere picnic next time :DD somemore got uncle selling ice-cream :DDD

aft tat lobang-ed jieying n her bf back to our area to collect their bike as dey parked it dere and b chiong-ed to furama for his fren's bd celebration ^^ after tat had our '' one month toast '' at b's place .____. the maggie he cooked was, ERM, one of those 'emergency' kinda food in which you'll eat onli when in bo bian situations LOLOLOLOLOL. den went home n TADANG ~ here i am blogging. tmr still need wake up for work -.- KANSIAN KANSIAN KANSIAN. jieying gg genting tmr... GOOD SIAAA.

SIGH like wat dey say: same people, different lives la.

gtg slp liao. neck veri pain -_-

nites peeps!!!

MAN YUE LIAO

2009-08-13T13:55:00.000-07:00

first of all.......

HAPPI ONE MONTH B~!! :DDD

so damn erm, happy la!

lol now its 5.04am..b just came online...lol tot he haven slp. he just woke up ._.. HENG ARRRR...nvr send him msg just now. wanted to bluff him tat im off to bed at 3am...scardy he go online see me realli hong kan liao sia. LOL.

ANYWAES,
just finish doin *ahem* :))))) sat dere for almost 4 hours just doing it. neck's gonna break in 10 mins tyme man. wonder wat will be his reaction when he sees it tmr. BUT disclaimer: its HUNDRED PERCENT HAND-MADE. so imperfections must be tolerated okie ^^

.. but frankly, time span of a month passes real fast man. lol. didnt know im together wif a idiotic bitch for a month liao :) if it wasnt for jieying, i wonder....................................

OYA

HAPPI BIRTHDAEE BABE !!!

...dint get anything for her though. she asked for ang bao tat tyme and warned me not to get her any prezzie. WTF. as if im an auntie la. lol. LAI LAI GIV U ANGBAO ! MUST GROW UP LIAO HOR...BIG GAL LIAO~ :D

shit my eyes are shutting down man. gonna catch up on ma slp. so damn looking forward to tmr:)) even if deres no celebration. cuz cn get to see him wat duh :)) YAWNS.

K NITES/MORNING PEEPS!
chaooooooooooooo *in a super good mood kinda tone*
god bless ^________^

WALAUEH

2009-08-12T10:08:00.000-07:00

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D-I-S-C-O-V-E-R-E-D!!!!!

shit u gf. lol

F UP

2009-08-08T07:50:00.000-07:00

guys hav cock-block.

i hav emotion block-age

<3

2009-08-07T13:10:00.000-07:00

just back from lil (REALLI LITTLE) beer-ing session at de jiu mui kopitiam wif b and his bro. LOL his brother damn cute la ! was talkin abt dragon boat, canoe-ing, sailing, basketball, well you name it -_____- dint know b was 2nd national in sailing sia. WTF.

AND i found out smth: the gal tat FARKING FLIRT wif him tat time at opp parklane likes him -.- NAHBEH I KNEW IT. lol. den zac tried to console me by saying: '' AIYAAAAA you shud be proud tat so many gals lyke ur bf MAHHHHH. '' lol SIMI SAI AH.

...but all in all, realli thnks b for meeting me after his fren's bd celebration :DDD tot he'll be shagged after sending his frens home.
was feeling so ''abandoned' all evening la. luvs man :))))

feeling kinda tired now...gg brush teeth n slp liao.

nites peeps!
god bless, especially him :)
believe it anot
im tink its for real tis time.
:))

maaaaaarina barrage :)))

2009-08-06T12:18:00.000-07:00

YO people~~

...YAWNS. skipping to the topics:

..b challenged me to waka-waka in FB -.- he say if cn beat his score i can extend slping time. i tried ma best n im 47th. him? all time best 5TH. KNN. scam his own gf.

..went to meet him after work...drove to marina barrage...walk...the view buey pai sia!..den went home cuz he got test tmr...LOL. but its sounds kinda strange sia. i mean, should i say he sent me home, or we both went home? LOL. TATS the thing with having bf living opp u nia ^^

...den now here i am...watching the video fredrik sent me..LOLOLOLOLOLOL. TRUIMP. WTF WTF WTF...! and eating ''random stuffs'' as fred always says -_____-

OK gonna end here..brush teeth n slp..if nt b kpkb liao.
nites peeps!
god bless :)))

im stil breathing

2009-08-05T21:10:00.000-07:00

i leave the gas on,
walk the alleys in the dark.
sleep with candles burning,
i leave the door unlocked.
im weaving a rope and,
running all the red lights.
did i get your attention?
cause im sending all the signs that
the clock is ticking,
i'll be giving my two weeks
pick your favourite shade of black,
and best prepare a speech
say something funny, say something sweet,
but don't say that you loved me.

Cause im still breathing
though we've been dead for a while
this sickness has no cure,
we're going donw for sure
already lost the grip,
best abandon ship, ooh

mayb i was too pale,
mayb i was too fat.
mayb you'd betta,
better luck in the sack.
no formal education,
i swore way too much
i swear you didnt care,
cause oh we're were in love
so as i write this letter,
and shed my last tear
its all for the betta,
that we end it here.
lets close this chapter,
say one last prayer,
but don't say that you loved me.

B ah...

2009-08-01T09:07:00.000-07:00

OMGGGGGGGGGG

hahaha nth. just bored. havin couple of beer alone. well trust me, it isnt the funniest thing to do. asking ur mum to open the beer for u while u're painting ur nails? NOT EITHER.

BIG NEWS (at least for me la) : B IS COMING BACK TMR!!!!!!!!!!

omg omg omg omg im realli damn damn damn happi siaaa....been realli a good gal n stayed home while he's away okie :DDDD

Gonna ask for my bubble gum when he's back :))) BUT on the other hand, expected him to be damn dark la. i mean he's going for diving training leh. Unless dere's lyke INDOOR SEA -___-'''

OMGGG....missed him lots mannn.... WOOTS!

its been a wkend of practically nothing except for beer-ing, slping, eating, and most of all, waiting

Suddenly tot of wat jieying said the other tyme: HE'S JUST A SELF-PROCLAIMED PLAYBOY LOR. HE DON EVEN HAV THE LOOKS LOR. LOOK AT HIS TEETH LA. IF I WERE U SURELY SLAP UNTIL DEY FROM CROOKED TO STRAIGHT ONE.CONFIRM HOR. LOLOLOLOLOLOL.

she always nvr fail to cheer me up man :)) but realli sry to PS her on fri to go DBL O cuz i was realli damn sad tat B's not in town T____T''''''. realli realli sry babe ! but i promise dere'll be no nxt tyme okie? :D

BUT ANWAES, HE'LL B BACK TMR!!!! am counting down the hours :))

sry for being lorso laaa..but realli missed him lyke sai la. lol. if u know wat i mean :P

OKIE, shall stop here, continue beer-ing, brush teeth, den head to bed!

nites peeps :)) god bless him n u people :)

much misses

2009-07-31T09:32:00.000-07:00

OMG.

b's at another island. miss him so damn lots.

came over to find me ytd night..

suprised me wif shaker fries he got at drive-thru !!! :DD

...long-banged me to 7-11 to get hoon ki, den i suggested driving to Mount Faber :))))

aft tat back to my hse..took two beers out to chat n drink along ma corridor... ( and the last hug nvr seems to be the last huh) <3

..and here i am, drinking by myself. damn lonely.

NVMIND. B will back on sunday !!

..borrowed him my ''lucky charm'' (the sheep given to me by zhenren)..WARNED him not to get it in water..if not might grow beansprouts -______-

OK. shall cont. beer-ing now...cheers ppl!
god bless him, my luv.

MAC MAC MAC

2009-07-20T10:58:00.000-07:00

Yawnssss......talking about monday blues -______-
...shall cut short cuz heading bed soon :DD

..BF went to pick me up after work....went to have mac at BM...den went Mount Faber for a walk (as i suggested) :))))))))

..walk walk walk....drove me home after tat...n here i am :)))

OK. tats all. lol.seems lyke im realli cutting SHORT sia. WATEVER.

NITES PEEPS ! <3

Dearie <3

2009-07-14T08:32:00.001-07:00

hahaha...omg..juz had the freaking shock of my life man....

was talking to b on msn.. when i told him im having bad sore-throat he suddenly MIA. LOL.

..was lyke *wat the*.

den jieying said: ''go see ur phone la gal''

DEN, b called me on HP. picked up, and he said:

'' im outside our hse..open the door LEH''

OMFG.

...handed me a sore-throat and fever medicine.

almost cried infront of him sia. SHIT. freaking touched la.

LOL. he smelt of durians sia :DDD

......
......
......
.....

he went hm...
den jieying showed me on msn:

money? says:
she looks so cute without make up

OMG. i can realli die happy now.

den chatted wif jieying on msn... she told me tat THAT is how guys shud be. lol. omg. cant believe i met so many fuckers in the past and yet think tat that was the way it shud be.

OKie. gonna hit the shacks now. promised him to be in bed by 1 :)))
nites peeps :))))

ANGELS

2009-07-12T04:33:00.000-07:00

TODAE,

God just sent me an angel. LOL.

This angel is an, erm all-functional one.

He

1. *ahem* carried me outta dblo, without breaking his arms.
2. scolded a taxi uncle cuz he dint want to take us WHILE carrying me. wasai
3. protected me from those CCB dikors.
4. set alarm clock using MY hp (kan pro sia)
5. rmbs tat i studied in SP, and tat i live in bukit merah
6. LOL let me wear his armani tee and havanas slippers
7. he lives opp me , yet drives me home
8. took care of me when it was HIS 21st bd (OMFG tat's the worse part man)
9. gave me 3 blue-blacks as a gift ( OKIE tats nt his fault bt still -____-)

LOL. ok. tats all for wat happened. zzzzz.
Last but not least,
thank god for letting me meet this angel and thanks that angel for all that.
A LEH LU YA

Thinking of You By Katy Perry

2009-07-08T06:00:00.000-07:00

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into..

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes
I'd like to stay.

update update~

2009-07-06T13:10:00.000-07:00

Yawns...hello people..its 4.06...gg slp..but tot of posting before i do tat..

...nth much gg on...'ve been working.. no clubbing since 2362746364328463784327 yrs ago....

yawns lol.

im tired. fine i admit. im so tired. if onli u know wat im talkin abt.

gg slp now. bye people. gotta reach office early tmr. nites peeps :))

t-shirt

2009-06-17T13:24:00.000-07:00

Woots~

people.......

lol well okie update update again:

...so damn looking 4ward to ma piercing mannnnnnn -_____________________-''''''''

lol well was reading my pass entries. mayb one word couldnt realli summarise wat i feel but haha, dey're retarded. if this were somebody else's blog i'll most probably stop my reading at the 1st few entries lol.

But true enough, dey are things that are worth reminiscing. hahaha okie wencui stop it.
stop the whole nonsense shit.

well lyke i said, no loss, as i've gained the love from my frens, u all know who you are :)) thnk u all so much for the support :))))

Sad thing is Ah Ben went army liao..no more supper gathering T_____T.

OYA.... damn damn damn looking 4ward to this fri... DBL O~~~~~~~~ with jieying n gang :DDD

ma god haven realli club for a damn long tyme sia. as in realli njoy n forget abt it all ya know :))))

Okie gonna stop here...n hello to bed ~

^-^v nites peeps.

BIG Yawnssss

2009-06-07T14:03:00.000-07:00

Yawns....okie gonna short-cut n summaries the events :))

.............................

Met up wif Yiwen at St james...went hm n bathed..slept at 5 plus..woke uo at 8AM plus for work -_-''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''. OMFG. Donno in how long i haven woke up in the morning liao sia (don count those days i nv slp at all la)

At work, almost, no i mean i DID, dozed off in front of the computer screen sia~ But the most lovable place of office is the.............................. SMOKING AREA :)))))) its located at the back, with the vintage off-white spiral stairs that leads to downstairs and stuff...woots :D LOVE IT MAN :)) colleagues are friendly too ( for now la) :)) Wanted to help Mae buy her Kuay Tiao from malay stall, but walked the whole fucking maxwell market oso no malay store open sia. wtf la.

Okie, seriously i donno y i keep this blog for sia. lol. Just think of it as a memo ba ! take down notes n things that happen ba :)) gonna start a new one soon man ^^ lyke what dey say, : the old one don't go away, new one won't come mah :D

Suddenly reminded of ******** when was at Balcony just now. wif nicholas and ben hor, dey talk talk talk as if no tmr sia. ben lyke tarzan siaaaaaa. LOL. he at cineleisure still need ask ppl the way to Heeren -_-'''''''''''''''''''. lol. As drama as ever, i start to think of stuff that i want to fucking scream at him n stuff. lol. how bored can i get sia, but well here it goes: you broke my heart the moment you chased me away, and that was when i finally woke up. i finally woke up from that naive little dream. Lets just call it, a beautiful awakening then :)

ALRITELY, (is that how its supposed to be spelled), gonna hit the shacks man. events lining up tmr, rest of week gonna be busy busy busy man. two jobs hor. buay gan dan hor. but busy enuf to get my mind off retarded things la :))

Nites peeps ^^
n thank you god.

tomolo tomolo

2009-06-02T02:28:00.000-07:00

Woots woots ~~

tomolo interview liaooooo :)) Must wake up mannnnn v^-^v

all i need, is tyme

2009-05-31T12:42:00.001-07:00

if you said how can we separate after been through so much,
well, all that's to be say has been said, all that has to be done had been done, all that's to be cry about, well, had ma tears dried up on its own. since he don realli giv a fuck about it, fuck it den.

And its ma blog, so im gonna throw everything here.
been crying since i reached home. letting it all out i guess . well but still thnks for telling me about the stout-and-redbull recipe. drinking it reminds me of you. fuck.

Ok gonna let my pride down for now. i am fucking upset. seriously. fucking upset. i just couldnt imagine hw i will be without him. of course, as the song goes, back to black. perhaps indeed, i deserve this, always didnt showed ma love , afraid of losing face,which is fucking retarded as i look back now. hah. karma baby. its coming to get back at me. but matter of fact is, im realli cant let it go. no. not him. when i tink of the tyme during april fool's day when we made a joke about breaking up, it just fucking suddens me so much. this is for real now, wen cui. he's not yours anymore just let it go. yeah. fuck you all. ur not me, all the more you wont know how i feel inside. its realli damn fucked up. am tryin ma best to erase every trace of memories of him, changing wall paper, fuck, its so naive.
well, dey always say, when you love somebody, you do not have to get hold of him, all you wanted was for him to be happy. yea. this is it. it sorta cheered me up a little. at least he wont get stuck wif a fucking pub waitress with no fucking future (whats tat), holds a night job, always so cold towards him. why cant he just fucking understand. im not the type of gals that can go all out when showing affection. its so sad he just don get it. don get what's on ma mind. no he didnt, and he will not have the chance anymore. i just so sick n tired of acting strong infront of dem. didnt even dare to tell zhenren about our breakup. just because i know that i'll jolly well breakdown infront of her. god, please grant me some strength now. i am feeling so weak. if only you can bend to take my hand, i'll fall upon my knees for the gratitude. god, please, i truly hope you can hear my prayers now. if not, let me forget him. im not asking for an exchange, between strength or the power to forget him. i just wanna end it all. and feel better. god, i beg of you.

it'll get betta in tyme :))

oh shit

2009-05-30T12:58:00.000-07:00

1. STFU if you donno anything.
2. If only i could make tyme stand still.

unappreciated

2009-05-28T14:16:00.000-07:00

woots.

poof.

LOL.

alrite.

Deep down in ma hart i knew it.

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Just wanna summarise a few things.

1. Ma name is NOT wen cHui.
2. 'Cuz i lyke to sleep' is NOT an excuse for break-up.
3. nice bd prezzie you r giving.

Okie, don wanna continue further.
Gonna save the others for future, if dere's chance.

So sry hav to blog dese things out. Simply cause i cant turn to you. Not anymore.

I guess you haven said anything just cause of the fact that ur camera's still with mie. And afraid i might sell it away (wont keep it cause i don bring a bulky film-taking thing around with mie). HAH. piss me off somemore la. i'll SHOW you what i CAN do to it. try me :D

KK Keeping ma mouth SHUT for now .
v^-^v.

Nites peeps.

finally

2009-05-26T07:01:00.000-07:00

i guess this tyme it really is goodbye.

..for good.

In an impulse. OH GOD.

2009-05-22T11:27:00.000-07:00

HELLO PEOPLE
*waves hands, though i've no idea who dese people are*.

One word. RETARDED.

That's exactly how i felt yesterday mannnnnnnnnn. OMFFFFFFFG. In front of Danny and May. sai ar.

Okie, we shall not go into the topic. Ren shi wang qian zhou*. LOL. *People onli walk facing infront*.

Donno why leh, suddenly feel lyke blogging after donno how many donkey days sia.
And hence, i must start something new. *Well at least in ma blog entries la*

In an Impulse (By evelyn liew v^-^v)

"STFU!" thou shouted, in an impulse
And yet this could leave a scar in thy head

"so?" I questioned without much thinking, in an impulse
in which made thou muse on the amount of patience granted upon me

I promenaded away, right in the vision of thou amigo, in an impulse
jilting misgivings behind to be illuminated

Abundantly all dese 'in an impulse' moments ditto.
And yet....

In defiance of the err I perpetually brought about....
thou art the love of my life :D

YAWNSSSSSS okie bo liao. b stil at work now. gg to bruah ma teeth den go slp liao v^-^v.
OYA note to AH Ben : TOO BAD....NO FREE HOON KI FOR YOU :D (FOR NOW LA) .
AND im sooooo gonna get dese : http://www.mybraclip.com/index.php?country=SG#buyitnow :)))))))))))))
ok gtg liao.. bubbyexxxxxxxxxxx. *Puke*

BOMB BAR - ED

2009-05-06T01:09:00.000-07:00

FUCK-UP.

just woke up, and she bombarded me wif that fucker's shit.

COME ON.

...give me a break.

.......OYA, realised smth.
When an owner loves to stone, her laptop tends to hang too. FAR TOO OFTEN. nah beh. PUI. sai ar. *coughs*

Bleah

2009-05-03T00:40:00.000-07:00

..afterall,

im still a cookie-holic.

:)

chocolate-over-eating-syndrome aka COES

2009-05-01T14:24:00.001-07:00

Okie~~~~
..just back from tiong park.. YAWNS.

..from the speed im clearing up the chocolates in ma hse, SERIOUSLY, sooner or later i WILL get chocolate-poisoning sia. lol.

SAI AR.
PUI.
*spitting out some Ferrero Rocher almonds*

okie, this is once again, a nonsense post. lol. gtg liao. grab some sleep. mayb a kinder bueno bar b4 tat?
MUHAHAHAHA.

ok. bye bye/ bub bye worx. LOLOLOLOLOL. shit i realli going crazy from chocolates-over-eating sia.

Oya add-ons: LOLLLLLLL. Orang Gutan Couple. WTF. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL. ROFL.

ok, jit bai realli zhao liao.
CHAOS~

ecafrekop

2009-04-30T11:06:00.000-07:00

Okie. I CONFESS. (again).
im just fucking lazy to blog. LOL.
BUT, anywaes tis ma love for now :D
Woots. Bye ppl :))

I wanna hold em' like they do in Texas Plays
Fold em' let em' hit me raise it baby stay with me (I love it)
Luck and intuition play the cards with Spades to start
And after he's been hooked I'll play the one that's on his heart

Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-e-ohh-oh-oh
I'll get him hot, show him what I've got
Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-e-ohh-oh-oh,
I'll get him hot, show him what I've got

Can't read my,Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face(She's got to love nobody)
Can't read my,Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face(She's got to love nobody)

P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face(Mum mum mum mah)
P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face(Mum mum mum mah)

I wanna roll with him a hard pair we will be
A little gambling is fun when you're with me (I love it)
Russian Roulette is not the same without a gun
And baby when it's love if it's not rough it isn't fun, fun
Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-e-ohh-oh-oh
I'll get him hot, show him what I've got
Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohhhh, ohh-oh-e-ohh-oh-oh,
I'll get him hot, show him what I've got

Can't read my,Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face(She's got to love nobody)
Can't read my,Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face(She's got to love nobody)

P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face(Mum mum mum mah)
P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face(Mum mum mum mah)

I won't tell you that I love you
Kiss or hug youCause I'm bluffin' with my muffin
I'm not lying I'm just stunnin' with my love-glue-gunning
Just like a chick in the casino
Take your bank before I pay you out
I promise this, promise this
Check this hand cause I'm marvelous

Can't read my,Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face(She's got to love nobody)
Can't read my,Can't read my
No he can't read my poker face(She's got to love nobody)

我看透了他的心

2009-04-22T23:25:00.000-07:00

haha.

am suprised that everything had changed in a split second.

im sorry. You just cant see the damage done inside.

what's keeping us alive will just be memories.

Xue Guang Zhi Zhai (T.T)v

2009-04-18T13:30:00.000-07:00

YAWNS.

hello ppl. i am evelyn, the zombie who's having a nose-bleed. In which has stopped due to the sanitary pad i stuff up my 5-feet big nostrils :D

lol okie la. was joking abt the sanitary pad ting (of cuz). anywaes haven been updating. ONE WORD. LAZY.

Back from work...supposed to go RUSH at Boat quay but didnt due to work. plus bf SURE kpkb if he finds out i go clubbing behind his back. so.......ya lor. BUT, its a blessing in disguise. Heng ar...didnt went. IF NOT............ I'll most probably nose-bleed to death in the dancefloor sial. (X_X)''''

Gg slp soon... just fnished doing ************. Haha. will fill the blanks up nxt week ya.

ok, gtg liao. gotta slp b4 nxt supply of blood explodes their way outta my brain/head/watever.

Chaos :D

i KNOW i sound veri cheena now -____-

2009-04-17T13:23:00.000-07:00

baby boy
永远永远手牵手, 一步两步一起走
永远永远要记得, 我们要一起生活
不管晴天的时候, 不管下雨的时候
不放开手到永久,我们要一起生活
眼泪她为你流过 , 也为自己掉过对於你们的爱
她总是抱着坚强的笑容, 错过那些时间
谢谢她的守候. 是时候紧紧牵她的手
带她到你的城堡里
最近还好吗 , 想念的心开不了口
枯想着你有没有好好过 , 担心着你每天生活
你好吗最近如何
照顾身体, 工作加油
我一个人也会勇敢好好过
不让你担心多一秒
想念着每天每秒我们故事
每天每秒说好的事两个人一起散步
是最浪漫的事
你是我的天使 , 给我力量能够坚持
那些关心问候 , 翅膀一样的双手
是我最幸福的所有
心里面有你建的角落 , 脆弱时我能够躲一躲
你爱我像翅膀一样温柔的手
我要抱着你不要再错过
你的爱是最蓝那片天空
cuz baby girl i’m coming back home
baby boy, 永远永远手牵手
一步两步一起走, 永远永远要记得
我们要一起生活, 不管晴天的时候
不管下雨的时候 , 不放开手到永久
我们要一起生活...
( dere's more lyrics to it but juz fucking lazy to do the paragraph-ing la dey :D )

ZZZzzz

2009-04-07T18:44:00.000-07:00

Yawns.

Wed liao.

BF's F**king snoring behind me.

LOLOLOLOL.

Okay, officially declared brain-dead RIGHT NOW.

Bye ppl.

:)

so much

2009-04-06T11:56:00.000-07:00

well.

juz back from work. freaking tired. scorching sun in the aftnoon, belly full of beer by night.

And guess wat? i hav so much to ask him.

Yea, his battery's flat, but cant he at least keep to his promise? He said to call me back, and me, the retard, hav been waiting all day. So much. to talk to him. How's his wound on his finger, stuffs. Haha, and all i reaped from all the waiting was a message announcing he wants to be alone. thnks. You've realli made my dae.

Oh ya, by now he must be fucking freaked out by all those missed calls. and if u know me well enuf, ma approach usually ends at the count of one call. i wont giv a shit if u dont answer. but this tyme i broke the tradition, haha, in a way. thnks man, realli.

'Ve got so much to tell him, but well, fuck it now :) Guess ma concern cant be compared to his precious sleep after all.

Here i am, blogging, or rather, talking to a fucking laptop screen after a day of work. so fun indeed.

All in all, i somewhat can totally relates to this song

能不能讓我
陪著你走
既然你說留不住你
回去的路, 有些黑暗
擔心讓你,一個人走
我想是因為,我不夠溫柔
不能分擔,你的憂愁
如果這樣, 說不出口
就把遺憾放在心中
把我的悲傷, 留給自己
妳的美麗, 讓你帶走
從此以後, 我再沒有快樂起來的理由
把我的悲傷,留給自己
妳的美麗, 讓你帶走
我想我可以, 忍住悲傷
可不可以,妳也會想起我
是不是可以, 牽你的手呢?
從來沒有,這樣要求,怕你難過
轉身就走. 那就這樣吧
我會了解的.
把我的悲傷, 留給自己
妳的美麗, 讓你帶走
從此以後, 我再沒有快樂起來的理由
我想我可以, 忍住悲傷
假裝生命中沒有妳
從此以後,我在這裡
日夜等待你的消息.

it doesnt hurt anymore.

2009-04-04T12:15:00.000-07:00

why?

As the rush comes

2009-04-01T14:32:00.000-07:00

There's a coldness in the air
but i don't care....
(Embrace me...surround me)
Travelling somewhere , could be anywhere
there's a coldness in the air,
but i don't care
we drift deeper, life goes on
we drift deeper into the sound
(Embrace me...surround me.. as the rush..)
Travelling somewhere, could be anywhere
there's a coldness in the air, yeah but i don't care
we drift deeper into the song,
life goes on, we drift deeper into the sound, feeling strong
so bring it on
so bring it on
we drift deeper into the song, life goes on
we drift deeper into the sound,
feeling strong
so bring it on
so bring it on
we drift deeper........we drift deeper
life goes on
we drift deeper drift deeper
we drift deeper into the song,
life goes on
we drift deeper into the sound, feeling strong
so bring it on so bring it on
we drift deeper into the song, life goes on
we drift deeper into the sound, feeling strong
so bring it on so bring it on
embrace me .. surround meas the rush comes
as the rush comes
as the rush comes
as the rush comes.

G U I L T - RIDDEN

2009-03-28T12:47:00.000-07:00

Yo ..

Yeap been blogging recently cuz i know SOMEBODY might be reading it.

Anywaes, been working.

OKAY, got to explain somethings.
....Becuz of my job's nature, i have to lie sometimes. Yeap. Ya know, abt my status..stuffs.
Well i realli hope ur not mad at me. As in, seriously. I mean, if i were u, i'll surely be fcuking pissed off, seeing other guys holding ur gf's hand n stuff. well, lyke i said, im realli sry.

Been keeping quiet for the whole damn evening when i was working. FREAKING GUILTY okay. jitao filled to the brim. fuck.

okay, what's to be said have been said. time to hit the bed. nites ppl. chao.

MY 1ST TO-DO LIST

2009-03-27T12:29:00.000-07:00

OK. Ppl....
lolololol. Came across lots of ''to-do list'' in blogs. Well, shall start mine here too:

1. VIST POPEYES FOR THEIR (OMFG) WHIPPED POTATES WHEN I HAVE THE TYME T.T
2. Pack my closet. lol. wuldnt be suprise if dere's lyke dead ga zhuaS inside la. (No la just joking.)
3. Get AMPLE sleep. And by that, im refering to the fact that i dont feel sleepy AT ALL when i wake up. LOL.
4. Meet up with my cliques. Miss dem fcuking loads man. Hav lotsa catching-ups to do. :D

OKAY, that's all i cn tink of for now. kinda brain-dead right now.

Oh ya, update of the day: Ben called me up for supper just now. was working. what culd be more depressing man. And the 'Harley-Davidson' gang came just now for a drink. LOLOLOLOLOL. Joke mannnn.

SIBEH SIAN AR. Ate so much just now, yet i can still hear the sound coming out from my stomach. WTF WTF WTF. BF's at work rite now (3.37am). tsk.

... fell in love with '' One step at a tyme'' By Jordin Sparks. LOL. ya ya i know its been some tyme since the song came out, bt watever :D

OKAY, gotta end my entry here.
Chao ppl.

BF ar..again

2009-03-23T00:34:00.000-07:00

Yo ppl...just woke up..bf's at his driving lesson...
...realli don get it why after soooo many hours of slp, i STILL feel sleepy. WTF WTF WTF.
..juz check ma facebook...uploaded some photos.

..And well, there it goes again. once again that fuck-up feeling pops up. just went thru his photos, and INDEED, he realli seems so much happier wif his frens, or rather, EX. FUCK MANNNNN. Yet i cant point it out to him, knowing his personalities. he'll surely brush it off, saying why am i thinking so much, or even, be digusted with me. But it realli saddens me, just lyke, '' boom! '' . Hahaha, yea i know the way i put it, its lyke so funny. SO DAMN FUNNY.

..But things aside, when i went thru his past years photos, couldny help but laughed at dem. LOLOLOLOL. He looked so cuteeeee man. LOL. exactly lyke those little ah bengs downstairs my hse. LMAO.

Okie, tats it for now, gtg work lata. im so tired. my back and shoulders hurts lyke fuck todae.
Chao ppl.

BF ar....

2009-03-18T12:04:00.000-07:00

...well ppl im here again.

hahaha its 3.01am, and bf's at work.

Something suddenly struck me as i was going through his profile: his smile.

WELL, u might say that im being fucking paranoid,but its just what i noticed: he seems happier when he's wif others, much happier den being wth me. Hahaha, this what i'll call 'instincts'.

yea true, we've onli been tgt for lyke what, 3 days? but the heart nvr lies. He gave me, a totally 'new' feeling, if u know what im talking abt. And being fucking frank here, im scared to be too happy, as 'learned' from those previous fuckers. Hu knows the day he leaves me, what the fuck will i do. Hahaha.

i know you will say:( This gal MUST be mad or else outta her mind. she's just been tgt wif him for days onli, and yet she's lyke singing praises of him? Aiya, this juz the ''honey-moon period'' la... when its over lets see what she's got to say/ post here...)

Oh well, i don dare to say anything in defense for now, u know. Tyme will tell.
...Who knows whether is he just playing wif you or what. ( Sorry bf, pls forgiv me 4 being so fucking paranoid). Its just that these are the things i can't possibly tell you, so hence, decided to let it all out here.

ANywaes, all i can say is, SO FAR SO GOOD ^-^.

Oh ya, update update 1st: Bf took ma white bangles and broke it during fight. STUPID BF. U realli think i'll care abt the fucking bangles? SIAO. Tot u shud know me betta, and know that im not the type that cn elaborate themselves freely. Luckily he's fine, apart from the two cuts on his right knuckles. Dumbdumb. Walaoeh.

ANywaes, met him up for dinner at central just now b4 his work. Fuck me man. Shud hav woke up much earlier. Spent ma tyme sleeping, in which results in lesser meeting tyme. FUCKFUCKFUCK.

OKAY ppl, that's it for now. gtg slp. tmr's ma interview at clarke quay, all thnks to my dear :D

Nites! God bless :)
P.S: miss him so much right now. what abt him? haha. i'll nvr know. Chao.