closing down

WADDDUPPPPP peepsssss ((: ahhh anws just wanna inform your that this blog's closing down. for frens, sorry uh not much updating lately. for haters, yeah go ahead and be glad about it. but same old lines: FUCK YOU(s).(: will be sending u all link of new acc in future. till then....takecare ! :DDD

27/05/2010

dont jump.

you used to have a girl who loves you so much, who's willing to wait for you.
Yet you chose to throw it all away.

25/05/2010

uh. jealousy? envy? a little bit of both i guess. dream. i mean..... urgh fuck it. as the song goes, whatever will be, will be. yeah.


everyone makes mistakes right? haah. well.


whatever will be, will be.


had gone with the flow for too long and lost myself.

time to find it somewher else.

its now or never.

22/05 - 23/05

nah uh. thissh ishh sho not guuudd.

waking up at 7pm on a sunday. how the hell am i going to sleep at night when there's work tmrrrrrrrrrrr. rwarrr.

anws had a fun night out with bert n ppl. went to had dinner at billy bombers after bert's gig, and toured arnd town. went for drinks at Spyder opposite Paradiz centre. brings back lots of memories man. tower of beer n a black label. close-to-killer combi for me after laying off alcohol for quite some time ah. after which went to cine for K-box till 6am, as well as for more and more drinksssss. shiokkkk to the max. back home at 7am plus, bathed and i jiktao concuss-ed. wan der fool weekend. ahhhh. im so god damn awake/stoned now aye. shit.

HAHAHA and all that's ringing in my mind now:

''Bo ta Bo LANJIAO! (except for me lahhh)'' and the ''Bro-code''. lololololololololol.

sometimes i guess i'll much prefer be a guy to than being a girl. It would be so much simpler.

If that boy dont love you by now, he'll never ever love you. harsh reality

According to the Greek mythology, humans were originally created with four legs, four arms, and a head with two faces.

Fearing their power, Zeus split them apart, condemning them to spend their lives in the search of their other half.

20/05/10

despite all, you're still the best thing that could ever happen to me.

19/05/10- you're a....sexy baby.

OT-ed tonight. tired and headed home after work. only motivation? getting ma fishy coloured end of mth. well planning to go for it by myself but since he wanted to acc me let it be then.


thinking back on the month so much happened. owe a big one to marke. if not hav no idea that sickening son-of-a-bitch gonna g__gb__g me with hw many of those f-up bastards. and that bloody bitch. none of her motherfucking business still wan chup. really jiak ba bo sai pang sial.

anws am looking forward to those club sessions with ma bitches man(: hav been so long since my freedom. its time to rock baby.


I shivered at the thought of it.
I wont let another man into my heart again.
I wont.

...I hope.

18/05/10

swt words n humor.

I felt appreciated.

I felt remembered.

I felt human once again.

hatred

why cant you use the heart that I've used to accept all your mistakes and incompetency?

16/05

memories are being erased, bit by bit.

15/05/10

Everyone wants to know why I won't let you go. It's because if I walk away, I know you won't come after me.

14/05/10 Part two

went bugis after work with joyce to meet up with ayuni to chill. walked arnd and talked for hours. bought myself a beautiful pair of rose studs. was otw home when stoped by a group of bengs. asked me for number. luckily they werent persistent. tio reject 3 times and give up.

Im contented enough right now, aint I?

14/05/10, our tenth.

Happy 10th baby.

13/05/10

took half day off work. tired.

was told that I will be taught editorial work to help clients in coming up with advertising lines. Sorta cheered me up abit as I can use little creativity and also get abit closer to my dream of entering mass comm.

hope it all works out fine.

13/05/2010

fuck this life.

left chest hurts again. hav to stop my breathing to ease the sharp pain. wonder, can i just stop breathing. too tired to go on. nothing's holding me back anymore. my love for life is gone. every single fucking day is drenched in darkness. which motherfucker knows.

I've became so silent. and lifeless.

Come and take me away if you want. I dont want me anymore. same nostalgic-


free me.




but lord pls help me in any unforeseen outcome. let him find a girl who loves him as much as I do. whole-heartedly.
just dont take away my memories. they're mine

08/05/2010 - Can you meet me halfway

Just woke up. Met up with jieying and jac, but jac couldnt make it to meet us. had 2 buckets of heinekens. High and dry.

she asked me to stay where I am. till he comes back.

faith is running out. thinking back on all the bad things he did.

Is it worth it?

fucked it up once, but i aint gonna fuck it up twice.



You once said you will never let harm come in my way. You broke your promise.

03/05/2010

i asked,

Can i close my eyes and forget everything.

No one replied me.

I asked again.

I want everything to be that simple, thats all.

Nothing.

Its all empty.

I've become so hollow.

This is not the wencui i used to know.

Fallen and defeated.

Fine. God, u won.

01/05/10

went to bert's gig ytd. laughs. movie at 2am. home at 4am plus. tired, but worth it(: im starting to love this feeling. embrace it baby.