here is the only place that i can voice out my real thoughts. because I know no one will ever read them.

I used to be a dreamer. I am a dreamer. I have my fears. unspoken fears. I am so afraid I will never find another boy who loves me like he did. I am so scared. I think about it everyday. I worry about it everytime. So long you come back, give me a hug like how you used to, everything will be okay. I can forget about the bad things you did to me. I regret giving you up. yes I regret it so much. but I guess you need the freedom. I dont know why your so hard to get over with. perhaps I still love you. just like how I did the very first day we been tgt.
I simply couldnt get myself to stop the clock on this blog.
I know I shouldnt love you still because you no longer do.
time, help me with this please.

its sucha shame. I have lost the you that I knew so well, somewhere, somehow. or is that the one that you shown me? that pretended side of yours? i dont know. but its no point to know anymore.

but as far as I know the clock has never stop before