all i need, is tyme

if you said how can we separate after been through so much,
well, all that's to be say has been said, all that has to be done had been done, all that's to be cry about, well, had ma tears dried up on its own. since he don realli giv a fuck about it, fuck it den.


And its ma blog, so im gonna throw everything here.
been crying since i reached home. letting it all out i guess . well but still thnks for telling me about the stout-and-redbull recipe. drinking it reminds me of you. fuck.




Ok gonna let my pride down for now. i am fucking upset. seriously. fucking upset. i just couldnt imagine hw i will be without him. of course, as the song goes, back to black. perhaps indeed, i deserve this, always didnt showed ma love , afraid of losing face,which is fucking retarded as i look back now. hah. karma baby. its coming to get back at me. but matter of fact is, im realli cant let it go. no. not him. when i tink of the tyme during april fool's day when we made a joke about breaking up, it just fucking suddens me so much. this is for real now, wen cui. he's not yours anymore just let it go. yeah. fuck you all. ur not me, all the more you wont know how i feel inside. its realli damn fucked up. am tryin ma best to erase every trace of memories of him, changing wall paper, fuck, its so naive.
well, dey always say, when you love somebody, you do not have to get hold of him, all you wanted was for him to be happy. yea. this is it. it sorta cheered me up a little. at least he wont get stuck wif a fucking pub waitress with no fucking future (whats tat), holds a night job, always so cold towards him. why cant he just fucking understand. im not the type of gals that can go all out when showing affection. its so sad he just don get it. don get what's on ma mind. no he didnt, and he will not have the chance anymore. i just so sick n tired of acting strong infront of dem. didnt even dare to tell zhenren about our breakup. just because i know that i'll jolly well breakdown infront of her. god, please grant me some strength now. i am feeling so weak. if only you can bend to take my hand, i'll fall upon my knees for the gratitude. god, please, i truly hope you can hear my prayers now. if not, let me forget him. im not asking for an exchange, between strength or the power to forget him. i just wanna end it all. and feel better. god, i beg of you.







it'll get betta in tyme :))