unbearable

short-cut:

b brought me to Timbre. lol. 1st time dere. DON SAY IM SUA GU HOR. love the band ! (think dere're called goodfellas). seriously realli njoyed it n thanks b for bringing me dere. luvman.


working...suntec n moshi2...



and now im feeling like one fuck. bleeding worsened over the evening. tmr or tues ZR accompanying me for scan. dint want to tell him lest he thinks im being so drama. n the tot of it just saddens me. but guess i just need someone by my side. god bless. right now im feeling so ironic. On one hand im afraid he might leave me for whatever shit's going, but on the other i wanna persuade him to find someone else. i realli don deserve him. don wana drag him down . and im not saying this because i wan to seem oh-so-great or what. it's because i love this guy. simple as that.
sometimes deep down i agree with him whenever he joked that im a piece of shit. i am, indeed.




something's very wrong.
the pain's getting unbearable.
feels as if dey're pulling themselves out from my body.
omfg.
mayb i shud just disappear
to shorten the pain