second thoughts

10.28am.


must be wondering why im blogging at the start of day. well just wanna make a note-to-self kinda shit.


ytd he had flu. went his place to find him aft work. was drizzling but still went to find and buy his snacks n swts anywae. went up. saw his relatives.
went to his rm, didnt look at me for more than 10 secs. n kept on with his game. pestered him for his attention, but he couldnt care less. wanting to leave, thats when he stopped me. whats the use? when i was right infront of you, you dont giv a shit. when i wanted to leave to avoid any conflicts, thats only when u stop me. whats the fucking point. and he didnt even bother to send me to the lift. haha wat a joke. was still waiting, though kept rejecting him, but please dont forget something my dear. after all, im still a girl. i need your attention sometimes.
i know its a small incident, but it realli reflects what kinda person u are.
Back home, he even tries to explain himself, saying what gaming shit. so its my fault for getting pissed when u neglect me for your fucking retarded game when i go n find u aft my wrk? Perhaps he's one of those fucking morons that love playing com games and watching animes. No offence, but indeed those are fucking morons.



fine. whats past is past. sent him msg tis morning. didnt plan to but did anywae. he haven replied.
i've oready put down my pride. what more you want.
saw him online. y can he go online but cant reply me.


just wanna let him know,
dont take things for granted.
y not take a step back in time, and imagine when we just started together.
will you treat me this way?