who is she.

been a month since I sent the email. shit me, my heart's still with you. I really donno what she's got that I don't have. but I don wanna know. irony. but don worry, I wont let it show and I wont let you know. there's only second best I could find now. speaking of a broken heart. I know it all too well.

how i really wish you could come back. forget everything that happened and be with you. I never thought I could put my pride down to this extent. never, did I thought you could move on so fast. where is the boy I love so much? the boy with the kind heart which I fell so crazy in love with, whom I know I just wanna grow old with, I could give up everything for? where are the days I so damn contented just sleeping next to you, hearing your heart beating and hold your arm, knowing that he really loves my heart, he really do. the one who will look into my eyes and tell me I'm beautiful. felt so right. everything just felt so goddamn right. but then things start to change. he changed. i asked him why he changed, and he replied ' because, people do change.' it hurts me so bad. tears swallowed down inside, held back my tears and I felt the lump in my throat so many times. I was all along loving the boy who he once was, but too bad he changed.

why did he become such a evil man?

so i promised myself im gonna hold my head high, not gonna let anybody see pain anymore. even if it means crying alone in the night, yeah my huge ego, i will survive through. but im falling into pieces everytime I think of the past. where is the strength I had. i just wanna know, how could he be so cold hearted and changed. for he had a girl who loves him so damn much. I really love him so much. if only you can dig out my heart and take a look